yesterday was a really great day so i thought i'd update this. alex came to visit and it was his birthday! i went over to his house after i got out of class and we walked to city park, talked a bunch, then went over to my house so he could see it. after that we went back to his house and decided to have a little get together party for him that ( Read more... )

im not sure what happens when you start to lose more than you have. but maybe thats not the case. i dont know. im so confused about everything that i can barely form sentences. its getting rediculous. im happy with my life but at the same time i've never felt so alone and it makes me sad. i have really great friends and family and things shouldnt ( Read more... )

so i guess i havent wrote in here for a while. 
soundtrack to my evening:

Manchester Orchestra - dont let them see you cry
Manchester Orchestra - colly strings
Gregory and the Hawk - a wish
Metro Station - now that we're done
The Scene Aesthetic - beauty in the breakdown demo version

how happy is the blameless vessel's lot
the world forgetting by the world forgot
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
each prayer accepted and each wish resigned.

that movie is too true in too many ways.

Uncommon amount of the time at home, hardly a word on the telephone. 
Finally find the time to get to know you. 
Still mapping it out like a master plan, something to do with my idle hands. 
Write you a letter addressed from California. 
It's vivid and strong in my memory, an absence that smacks of abandoning. 
It let to the battle that ultimately ( Read more... )

convo with april last night:
CandyHartz234 : you know how ive talked about yoni?
ilovelove5 : yeah
CandyHartz234 : well...
ilovelove5 : ???
CandyHartz234 : hes coming to visit on the weekend of the 16-18
CandyHartz234 :and thats when ur here and the dance that i mentioned is
CandyHartz234 : sooo
CandyHartz234 : since .. yoni is jordans best friend
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I dont know what to say because i dont know what is okay to say on here.
But…  i feel like there’s two of me, and one is shaking the other by the shoulders and saying what are you doing, what are you doing?  The other me sinks down and says, I don’t know, i dont know… And I suppose there must be three of me because I stand back and watch those two, ( Read more... )

i need a puppy.

imagine what loneliness ( Read more... )

Happy 16th Birthday Mike!

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