Perfect
A fic request from filthyjones.
"You two are so perfect for each other."
People have told you that since you started training ("Both of you match so well. It's perfect!") and it was made known that he found you beautiful. You laugh the first time you heard it, blushing prettily and teasing him with a waggling finger. "So, we're perfect together, eh?" you'd say and he'd reply with a smile and shrug. Your heart would flutter every time someone would bring it up and he'd respond the same as the first time. But then-
"You two are so perfect for each other."
That one line, repeated so many times makes you feel like it's eating away at your soul as you force on a smile and keep on laughing it off. Sure, you know you're perfect for him, but you also know -- that even though he smiles and shrugs and plays along -- he doesn't see it that way.
Changmin's always been... different. Reserved was a word used most often to describe his demeanor. Like a silent sea, calm and deep -- shrouded in mystery. God knows you've tried to get him out of his shell more -- everyone's tried but he's always been able to pull away. Somehow, always retaining that lone wallpaper image he's kept all these years. He's supposed to be perfect for you. And if that's the case, shouldn't it be easier for you to open him up? Every time, your efforts seem to go in vain. Sure, he notices them, and he'd smile that same smile and pat your head but that would be it. He doesn't stay to talk or invite you out to eat or even just sit with you. But you'd always smile back, and continue to try and try and try -- you'd smile even when you fail and he walks away again.
And he always does. You've already given up on the hope that he'd stick around and be with you. There's no point. You don't want to share him with someone else, but there's no way she could pull him away either. He's too wrapped up in staring (talking, smiling, laughing) at her that he doesn't see what he could have -- what he has -- now. Someone who loves him, in love with him: You. There could be something wonderful between the two of you, but not for him.
It's been a year since you've stopped trying to open him to you. Over a year since he glanced your way with a smile and a "Hello, Yuri-shii". Over a year since he started coming out of his shell, little by little; wrapping his arms around her during practice when he thinks no one is looking (whispering her name into her hair, "Yoona..."). Over a year since you got used to the heartbreak and started seeing it as just another routine to get through on your schedule each day.
You stopped saving yourself for him. You knew that waiting would go nowhere. You started flirting back with those guys in shows and at the clubs you go to at night. You let it go further than just flirting sometimes. But of course, you never tried to make it last. You never felt anything for them anyway. They were just distractions to help you get your mind off him.
It never worked, but you told yourself it was healthy to try. Even if all you did the next day was cry about it.
You still tease him sometimes, saying "Hey, we're perfect for each other, oppa!" and grinning. And he still smiles but it's not like how he used to. You tell yourself you shouldn't tease him anymore, but sometimes your heart feels the need to say it and so you do. Over and over again, despite the way your heart breaks. Once, he even responded, with his hand on the slope of her back and a brightness in his eyes (something you've never seen), "No, we're not. You and Minho are though, Yuri-shii." And you laughed, blushing prettily and teasing Minho (who's next to you, defending himself and stammering).
You know that you're perfect for him. You know that you're everything he's looking for. You've always been the type to wait patiently for him, but in all this time you've learned something very important:
Just because you're perfect for someone doesn't mean they want you.
Thoughts? Suggestions? Violent reactions? :)♥ And yeah, my OTP will come out every time Changmin or Yoona is involved.