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stop being so dumb & self centered

how about you just push me aside. im not really worth it anyways right? why don't you just toss me away? cause i just cant find the words to say, im sorry. dont waste your time with me. im not what you want and ill never be. anything. ill never be anything close to what you need. and for all the times ive said goodbye, i never meant it like i mean ( Read more... )

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omg i am so bored right now. im at this party thing that my dad is playing at and wow. all these creepy old drunk people who think they can sing & play when they cant. i have such a bad headache. and to think... i could be hanging out with my friends right now. FUCK! so boring... my dad owes me. fucking big time... der i just said big time. ( Read more... )

Nema is awesome. I had a fucking lame day and Nema made me laugh and when I cried he handed me a tissue. There are just the tinniest things that make you so happy sometimes.

yo yo vince you aint no prince you are so ugly you make me wince see im real fly and you are not youre not my kinda guy youre a piece of snot stop your staring stop checkin out what im wearing its just not cool and neither is your drool i can see your boner i bet its a loner those are probably gym socks so you can say "my willie rocks"

i cant belive i couldnt even tell you to your face. or do this more slowly. i cant believe it turned into this so fast. i dont quite understand it. i dont understand myself. and i dont expect you to be my friend anymore. and i dont expect us to talk. but sometimes touch is to much. and now i just cant take it. ill try to let go of it. but will you ( Read more... )

of course its happening now. ive made a concious decision not to care. not to let this tear me apart. a gesture. a word. some constant sacfice of values for comfort. of course its happening now. tactile and so satisfying. i cant keep myself from this. and to stop now would be tragic. to let go unfair. not to let this tear me apart. of course its ( Read more... )

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