LJ Idol Week 13: Fan Death

[i_love_freddie]

When the depression attacks...

I believe I am a worthless failure.

I believe that no one will ever love me.

I believe I will die alone.

I believe that is what I deserve.

When the anxiety is bad...

I believe the world around me is unsafe.

I believe everybody is laughing at me all the time.

I believe that if I close my eyes tonight, I will die.

I believe that my friends are not really my friends.

I believe that everyday objects could kill me.

Living with Post Truamatic Stress Disorder...

I believe the nightmares will never end.

I believe that everyone is to be feared.

I believe that no one is safe to be around.

After experiencing disassociation...

I believe that I did something bad but I can't remember what it was.

I believe I could be dangerous to others.

Influenced by the psychosis:

I believe that people are always watching me.

I believe that my house is possessed by a demon.

I believe the voices that tell me I am bad and deserve to die.

I believe that I have no idea what is real or not.

But inside me:

I believe I am a good person.

I believe I deserve to be loved.

I believe I have skills and talents.

I believe that I try my best.

I believe that I will not let the illnesses win.

I believe that I will never stop fighting.

I believe that I will be OK.