and considering no one reads this crap anymore its a nice way to feel like im putting my emotions out there without actually doing so. Yet again im writing due to a serious loss of a significant other, this time a rekindled relationship that turned south a day shy of 5 months, on a brighter note thats a new travis world record for you right there ( Read more... )

just needing to make another post. lifes usual again, nothing stellar, nothing crappy. only a few complaints of how lifes heading, my dad keeps complaining about the fact i dont hang out with girls which is honestly annoying. works alright as well, i guess thats why i want to write right now. nothing is extraordinary or awesome right now, but ( Read more... )

so last night i had a dream, it was of her, and its buggin me. it wasnt even like it was long, or intense. all i remembered is that we met, said our hellos, kissed, and hugged and cuddled, that was all. it was so harmless a dream, but it took me back and did some damage. Its been almost 2 weeks now, and i feel like it has been forever. im hurtin on ( Read more... )

i cant help but feel lost, i dont have direction, and i dont have purpose to my life right now. i just want to find a reason to wake up every day, i want to feel wanted for soemthing besides my game knowledge. i want someone to want me for my personality, because im a cool dude, and it sucks knowing that your not appreciated for who you are as a ( Read more... )

im not quite sure what to put here right now, im in a mixed state of moods and its also 1 am and ive got work at 10, im more so writing this for my own sake because honestly, who the hell reads this thing anymore. point proven. but lately its been hard doing things on my own, ive always been there for others but it feels like ive got no one to turn ( Read more... )

its things like WWII in hd that make me love history, yes its depressing, yes its discouraging, but history isn't about just what the event was and the major players. Its also about the emotions behind the events, what caused them, what factors lead to the events. Im positive i want to specialize in avation history now, to remember my fallen great ( Read more... )

so im writing in this thing cause i know no one uses this anymore, that and i feel like i could open up to the world and not have a soul listen to me. Its funny, cause im looking at my profile picture and going, wow, i remember that guy, that young depressed nerd, who couldn't pull himself together, and now im looking my reflection in the mirror ( Read more... )

Its not rough, but i want to say it is. Im supposed to be writing a paper right now, but i just cannot stop thinking about this "problem" i guess you could call it. There is just something i have put so much effort into, and so much time, like im talking years of building this up, waiting, second guessing. Now i just want to go for it. Problem ( Read more... )

its been a long while since ive updated.... so heres a summary ( Read more... )

things are strange right now, im not feeling good physically, and emotionally, im just drained. Every friend i just spent the past four years trying to get to know better, has just left, cept for christine, eric, and tony, but tony is going this friday. i now have only 2 friends to keep me sane, while having like 12 was barely doing it. i just wish ( Read more... )