Hunter S Thompson quotes it too perfectly

"im too weird to live but much to rare to die"

I have never wanted a "normal" life in any respects. I have never dealt with structure, ive never even tolerated it. I feel distraught and in no mindset to make any life decisions and this is when they are kind of necessary. Every decision i make is too late ( Read more... )

Now it seems, I’ve lost most everything, Take do me, how this could be, At least I got my friends, But how much do you expect these friends to mend, If I could just wait some more time, I remember when you said, What you said, What you meant about this, I remember when you felt safe,You let it begin ( Read more... )

condemed my ass.

never.

5 min ago my eyes were dragging and all i could think about was sleep. i couldnt sleep for the life of me right now. things with kris are.. i dont know. they just piss me off. i cant help but to miss him. but its hard. hes just a GIANT asshole now. i cant remember the last nice thing he said to me. ive kind of had it. he will ( Read more... )

this journal is CONDEMED

i really fucked up this time

So I know nothing of your taste
and now speak up, louder.
It's in your lips, I found.
Come on, just press against me
I finally have your attention,
so listen closer, sweetheart.
I've been trying to tell you, stay awake.

And no, no, when we're safe here
Come back, come back
You stayed always.
Stay with me here
Stay with me and watch these ( Read more... )

so since friday my life has changed. my entire house flooded. it was condemed. considered a disater area. we were not aloud close to it for 2 days and the firemen would only go in it with Haz/Mat suits on. ive been stopping by everymorning since then with my family to collect everything we can in the time aloud. ive talked to too many news anchors ( Read more... )

hallie wont answer my calls. she hasnt all week. i just want to hang out with her. her and kris are my only two friends lol.mybe ill go to the movies by myslef lol. i wanna see clerks2 so bad. kris needs to come home asap. it makes me realize alot. i talked to OU about transfering there. i just cant do it without him that sounds so gay but its true ( Read more... )

so as i sit here twiddling my thumbs i come to a loss of what you do when youre at home. i  have forgoten im always on the run and i like it that way. i like always having things to do. kris is in canada for a week.! :( bummer. and my car is still in the shoppppeee. so im waiting for hallie maybe she'll be down to pick me upp ( Read more... )

i was reading some old journal entries and myspaces of kris's. i was a bitch.

i will never. ever. ever. take that kid for granted a day in my life again

he deserves the world.

i suck.
but all i can do is move forward. its in the past. very far past. all i can deal with is the present. and i will