In a week, I will be waking up with some pretty scary-looking bruises, cuts, and stitches, but happier for it. I hope.

But until then, I need to do something with all this tension. So  I write.

In July of 2006, I had not yet sorted out my issues, but was thinking of taking female hormones (as in hormones: "yes;" transition: "huh? wuzzat?"). Skimming ( Read more... )

Last morning I had a half-dream about the phallus as a parasitic/symbiotic* xeno-entity that sprouted from a seed implanted atop the clitoris of a woman I know. Then to grow it into its own shape. Elegant, but unwelcome. Its thoughts intrude. Insist.**
It's been two weeks since I started cutting down on both the right hormones as well as the ( Read more... )

( A second letter from Kazt who reflects on cryogenic travel and The Made Way )

Scary either way: Surgery and hormones don't mix.
Androgen-blockers lower your blood pressure. Estradiol can cause blood clots. Since I need to be off them for two weeks before surgery, I start cutting down today.

The idea of this used to scare me. It should've. I'd gone through months of paperwork and assessements and totally unnecessary delays to ( Read more... )

A
"Grrrrrunt."

This is the sound of me doing one of two things:

1. Trying to open a jar. People used to pass jars to me because I could open them. Now I'm getting aquainted with the virtues of hot water, banging them on tables and so on.

2. Trying to do a chin-up. I used to be able to do several sets of between one and three, depending on how much ( Read more... )

Until Wednesday the 28th, my cousin will be here; I will not.

CFS conference in Ottawa until the 25th.
Every time I go, I get stronger; they, less relevant.
And I bring back something worthwhile.

Quickly over to Boston. Even quicker over to Toronto. Then home.

Be well,

I gotta answer this thing when I go see a doctor for assessment come January, otherwise they'll take away my free trans toaster (the bread looks the same, but it self-identifies as toast. Given time, it may start wearing marmalade out in public).

That said, It's pretty interesting for everyone. Take a gander?

Gender Identity
How would you describe ( Read more... )