Bottled it.

I am the master of my own destiny.
If I don't make it happen it doesn't happen.
So I will make it happen.

Stuck in an almost peaceful melancholy today.

I feel paralysed at the moment. I cannot speak my mind for fear I'd be upsetting someone. I do not know how to act and what behaviour is normal for me. I have tried to tell myself to stop being so serious about the situation but it's impossible to ignore the possibility of hurting a friend or even appearing to have betrayed a friend. I don't want ( Read more... )

There is so much going on in my brain at the moment that I can't even process it all into words but I don't want to speak about any of that. So I've written something else entirely ( Read more... )

If I didn't go to the gym so much I think would punch people in the face a lot more

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Fucking hate everything. Everything is annoying. Everything is shit. Just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

Wake up hungover, tired and with a minor case of heartbreak and go for a shower to find 3 bottles of conditioner and no shampoo or shower gel. Days like this you feel like the whole world is against you.

I have lost over 1 and a half stone now and look like this.


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Struggling to maintain a positive attitude at the moment. It's not like anything has changed lately really, I just feel different. And I look different. Maybe it's just me that notices it but I really look like a totally different person when I'm a bit down, so tired and my face looks like there is no life in it ( Read more... )