These are the times I really miss out on life. When my baby sister is at home and she has my mom, my dad, and my grandma sitting in the audience applauding and cheering for her. But it's like I am that lonely chair, the one that's never filled. I'm that "dad" that never comes to their kids soccer game. The one that the kid doesn't even remember ( Read more... )

I think it's time to subside... I think i've finally hit rock bottom. I realized that in one instant I almost lost the most important thing i have in my life. I can't explain it, but reading her words and realizing this was the start in which every relationship I've ever had has gone wrong. When I completly surrender myself to the other person. But ( Read more... )

Why. emotionally wrapped up i get in this fucking relationship. I'm so fucking engulfed in her. I have no fucking back bone. I have nothing. I have her, and I want her...she is my baby. But I let out too much of myself already. I'm becoming a wreck and no fun to be around. I'm becoming the person crystal left. I'm the same girl I was 4 years ago. ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what exactly it is I'm feeling. Now don't read me wrong, I'm not saying I don't love her, because that couldn't be further from the truth...what it is I am questioning is... how do I keep her. I'm not sure if it's my self confidence kicking in our just my past trying to warn me to not let this tragedy happen again. When I think about ( Read more... )

I'm a complete wreck, I know I love this girl with every ounce of emotion my body has. Yet I'm so completely terrified to meet her. To be able to touch her to kiss her, to feel her warmth radiating off her skin. I feel as though my punishment for the things I have done has not been served long enough to deserve this, to deserve her. I feel I need ( Read more... )

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Dear crystal, remember when we first met for the first time, at the hotel, god you're gorgeous. Sitting there with the vernoicas shirt. And my yellow powerrange

Dear crystal,
i broke up with melissa today because i missed you so much. Come back . . .