FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 1/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 15:07:33 UTC
NOTES: So this finally tumbled out of my brain last night, and I don't really feel like going through the whole beta-and-editing dance with it so you're getting it in all it's raw glory, including typos, grammar snafus, first-draft-fuckups and summarized bits. Also, in the interest of full disclosure, it's technically unfinished, but I have no clue when or ~if I'm going to write the second part, partly because I have no idea who I want to pair him up with for the parts where he falls for [insert male canon chara here] and gets to work through his issues from this and have Sam gently explain to him that yes, indeed, it was something he's got the right to be traumatized by and... I'll stop here and just post.
Won't Cry Wolf; Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, dub-con and non-con, all underage, 3k so far. (Also, I'd like it to be known that the management (aka me) very much ~doesn't agree with some of the opinions in both Dean's headspace and John's behavior
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Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 2/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 15:11:32 UTC
Dean's sixteen when Dad's up against a werewolf that deals out almost as good as it takes and sends him to the hospital for two weeks. He calls Dean, voice so weak and thin and different that Dean doesn't dare tell him the truth when he asks if they'll get by without him for a little while longer. They're dangerously low on funds already and rent's due in a few days, but Dean's found a bar with a pool table that doesn't give a flying fuck about the fact that his boyish face doesn't jive with the year of birth on his fake ID.
The guy - tall, lean, but but-ugly, baseball cap over a bold scalp - approaches him with that look on his way to the bathroom on the second night, throws a leer his way and grins knowingly when Dean cuts his eyes away a beat too slowly. He follows Dean to the restroom, and, once there, corners him against the sink. He must take his final cue from the way Dean just goes lax and turns his head away, but doesn't try to escape, because the next thing Dean knows he leans in and grabs hold of Dean's jaw to pulls his
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Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 3/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 15:12:20 UTC
The guy seems to notice his hesitation, gently pushes Dean's hand away and takes over the task of peeling Dean out of his jeans. He reaches inside Dean's boxers to stroke him, and for a moment there Dean hopes that it's okay, he'll get to pitch, no big deal, before he pulls them down, directs Dean - now naked from the waist down with his pants pooling around his ankles - towards the wall face first and pushes at his thighs to widen his stance.
Dean's face heats up with shame when he feels the guy part his cheeks, rub a long line from his balls up to... There.. His asshole. Which he just sold for a fuck. He curses under his breath, tenses when he feels a finger prod at him, circle the line of his rim and push in, and yeah. That's it. He changed his mind
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Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 4/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 15:13:55 UTC
He wakes up to bright lights and road noises, and it takes him a moment to figure out that he's not in the restroom anymore. No, he's in an ambulance, and there's a young, blonde EMT holding his hand, stroking a thumb along the meat of his palm absentmindedly. She smiles down at him when she notices he's awake, but Dean draws his hand back and it falls away.
“It's okay, sweetie”, she says, tone low and soothing and so fucking sympathetic, “we'll take care of you. He can't hurt you anymore.”
All Dean hears is, she knows. Someone probably called the cops too, and they're going to tell Dad. And Sam. Everybody will know what happened to him. He tries to sit up, not caring that he won't get any further than the other end of the ambulance anyway, winces when the movement jars something deep inside
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Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 5/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 15:15:18 UTC
By the time Dad's back, Dean hardly feels it anymore. He doesn't have to suppress a hiss every time he sits or otherwise pulls his stitches, he's off the pills for the headaches, and the bleeding has stopped. If he flinches away when his dad reaches out for his shoulder to heave himself out of the car, well, that'll pass. A few more days for Dad to get well enough for a few hours of driving, and then they'll be out of this town and what happened here will be a fading memory.
The next morning, Dean gets woken up by the doorbell, and when Dean steps out of his room Dad's already got the door open, blocking the way of two policemen.
One of them is the old officer Dean dealt with at the hospital, and Dean wants nothing more than to run back into his room and pretend this isn't happening. Fuckfuckfuck. His throat is dry as sandpaper, and even if he knew what to say to defuse this, he wouldn't be able to get the words out, can't do anything but watch as the officer introduces himself, extends his hand and scowls when John doesn't take
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Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 6/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 15:17:38 UTC
Sam strolls out of their shared bedroom as soon as the door's fallen shut behind the officers, rubbing his eyes, and that's what postpones Dean's stern talk until later that evening. Fittingly, Dad doles it out over a hand-to-hand training session.
“This morning, what you told the cops,” he starts while him and Dean are circling each other. “You been straight with 'em?”
“Sure,” Dean lies. “Or do you really think I'd let someone get the jump on me?”
Dad looks at him long and hard. “No. I don't. But that's some fucked up shit, son, and I'm not talking about the fact that you're into men. Your business who you fuck. But you gotta look out for yourself. Be safe. Pick 'em better.”
Dean doesn't say anything, just nods, and after another long moment Dad throws the first punch for him to dodge.
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It wasn't rape. He told Dad, told the cops, that it wasn't. Bought and paid for, his right to say no given away when he agreed to take the money. Not a crime, but a simple business transaction
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Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 6/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 16:55:40 UTC
Your comments are the best comments. ♥
I had a rather shitty week and I'm still in a bad mood, so obviously ~someone had to take the fall for that. Hence this thing happened. IDEK.
There's SO MUCH MORE I want to do with this (I could've written another 3-4k last night, but I didn't really feel like passing on sleep to write half a BB in one night, trololol) but now my brain's back into the same action-not-reaction rut it's been stuck in for a while now. So. Later. I wanted to get into Dean recklessly jumping into a relationship with a guy, because no way that thing still impacts him only to get triggered like fucking whoa and backing out and dancing around the issue until Sam sits him down for a talk, and maybe do something with the kit and the results from that, have ~someone confront the arsehole years later or not or IDK and really, I can write you all the hurt you want but the comfort is so much work. /o\
Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 6/?geckoholicApril 14 2013, 23:06:02 UTC
She's jumpy these days, the damn thing. Attention span of a five-year-old or something. :C But yeah, he'd get arrested, and there's the evidence from the kit. Maybe other boys, too?
Thing is, I'm not even sure Cas is the one I want to be getting it on with Dean here? I love the guy, I do, but I'm not so sure he'd be versed enough with human emotions and sensitive and careful enough to be cast like that in a rape recovery fic. You're right about Dean just responding to others wanting him, though.
My track record with verses is, errr. Not stellar. XD
Re: FILLED (sort of): Won't Cry Wolf, Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, trigger warning for rape, part 6/?geckoholicApril 15 2013, 14:36:18 UTC
Naaah, I'm not sure an OC is what I'm looking for here, either? Urgh. Brain. Go back to plotting, you used to like that, there's more to this fandom thing than angst and porn. :C
Won't Cry Wolf; Dean/OMC, John, Sam, OCs, dub-con and non-con, all underage, 3k so far. (Also, I'd like it to be known that the management (aka me) very much ~doesn't agree with some of the opinions in both Dean's headspace and John's behavior ( ... )
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The guy - tall, lean, but but-ugly, baseball cap over a bold scalp - approaches him with that look on his way to the bathroom on the second night, throws a leer his way and grins knowingly when Dean cuts his eyes away a beat too slowly. He follows Dean to the restroom, and, once there, corners him against the sink. He must take his final cue from the way Dean just goes lax and turns his head away, but doesn't try to escape, because the next thing Dean knows he leans in and grabs hold of Dean's jaw to pulls his ( ... )
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Dean's face heats up with shame when he feels the guy part his cheeks, rub a long line from his balls up to... There.. His asshole. Which he just sold for a fuck. He curses under his breath, tenses when he feels a finger prod at him, circle the line of his rim and push in, and yeah. That's it. He changed his mind ( ... )
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“It's okay, sweetie”, she says, tone low and soothing and so fucking sympathetic, “we'll take care of you. He can't hurt you anymore.”
All Dean hears is, she knows. Someone probably called the cops too, and they're going to tell Dad. And Sam. Everybody will know what happened to him. He tries to sit up, not caring that he won't get any further than the other end of the ambulance anyway, winces when the movement jars something deep inside ( ... )
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The next morning, Dean gets woken up by the doorbell, and when Dean steps out of his room Dad's already got the door open, blocking the way of two policemen.
One of them is the old officer Dean dealt with at the hospital, and Dean wants nothing more than to run back into his room and pretend this isn't happening. Fuckfuckfuck. His throat is dry as sandpaper, and even if he knew what to say to defuse this, he wouldn't be able to get the words out, can't do anything but watch as the officer introduces himself, extends his hand and scowls when John doesn't take ( ... )
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“This morning, what you told the cops,” he starts while him and Dean are circling each other. “You been straight with 'em?”
“Sure,” Dean lies. “Or do you really think I'd let someone get the jump on me?”
Dad looks at him long and hard. “No. I don't. But that's some fucked up shit, son, and I'm not talking about the fact that you're into men. Your business who you fuck. But you gotta look out for yourself. Be safe. Pick 'em better.”
Dean doesn't say anything, just nods, and after another long moment Dad throws the first punch for him to dodge.
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It wasn't rape. He told Dad, told the cops, that it wasn't. Bought and paid for, his right to say no given away when he agreed to take the money. Not a crime, but a simple business transaction ( ... )
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I had a rather shitty week and I'm still in a bad mood, so obviously ~someone had to take the fall for that. Hence this thing happened. IDEK.
There's SO MUCH MORE I want to do with this (I could've written another 3-4k last night, but I didn't really feel like passing on sleep to write half a BB in one night, trololol) but now my brain's back into the same action-not-reaction rut it's been stuck in for a while now. So. Later. I wanted to get into Dean recklessly jumping into a relationship with a guy, because no way that thing still impacts him only to get triggered like fucking whoa and backing out and dancing around the issue until Sam sits him down for a talk, and maybe do something with the kit and the results from that, have ~someone confront the arsehole years later or not or IDK and really, I can write you all the hurt you want but the comfort is so much work. /o\
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Thing is, I'm not even sure Cas is the one I want to be getting it on with Dean here? I love the guy, I do, but I'm not so sure he'd be versed enough with human emotions and sensitive and careful enough to be cast like that in a rape recovery fic. You're right about Dean just responding to others wanting him, though.
My track record with verses is, errr. Not stellar. XD
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This was tremendous, and tremendously painful. Hope your week is better!
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Thanks! And here's hoping it will be.
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Thanks! The muse is being a bit of an eel, lately, that damn thing.
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