And it's been only days,
I wish I could sleep.
I can shut my eyes and,
Come on, I feel like a basket case. 
And now my head's spinning,
in this odd, odd game.
Strung out- and losing the romantic at heart,
because it gives me character.
A love like this, 
you thought you gave me the end of,
a love like that.

And I guess I should forget where I came from.

Because there is no love in that memory. 
She took that away too.

And so she lives like a rolling stone. Momma never cared about a broken home.

No love, no glory, no hero in her sky.
But I can't take my eyes off of you.

Balance. is needed
Obsessive behavior. now recognized.
Anxiety. just breathe.
Inner strength. they can't touch.
Seperation. only a fear.
Fear. of being alone.
Time. takes too long.
Lost. you could say that.
Recovery. brought closure.
Identity. don't forget.
Destination. forever young. forever free. forever my own person again.

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Happy Birthday Daddy.
You would have been 47 years old today.
Had you not been so young when it was your time to go.
I apologize on mom's behalf.
I never thought she would spend the anniversary of your birthday,
with her new boyfriend.

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I come home from Florida to find my mom is in the intensive care unit at the hospital 
because she had passed out at work Sunday night and fractured her skull in 3 places and fractured a bone in her eye socket. 
It's the saddest thing I have ever seen.
She can't move without vomitting. She doesn't remember how it happened. No one at her work saw it ( Read more... )

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Sitting at the top of the stairs, I realized how weird it is to listen in on people talking about you. I still don't know who it was.....
"It's so crazy that Karina doesn't drink."
"Yeah but you gotta show her some respect ya know, it did kill her dad."
"Oh I know, but how can you do that?"
"Don't push it man, she doesn't drink and she'll never start."
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cause I made her bleed.

Family. Is something I'm not familiar with.
My friends are my family. And my mom and sister of course.
But to the rest of them: (this thing called family)
The music in my ears has always been too loud,
I wear too many bracelets.
Piercings and tattoos are unacceptable.
I date the wrong boys, the ones with the mohawks and loud cars.
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He rolled away one day and never came home ( Read more... )