Everyone who grows up has to die someday.

[holden42]

So I find myself at the end of another year. And suddenly I am old. This isn't just a number. My body seems to get injured more, and most frightening of all, I am fairly sure my memory isn't what it was. I used to excuse this on an abuse of substances in my younger years, but I think it might just be age. Ok, so 22 doesn't seem like a usual time to

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memory loss

[miguel_in_spain]

I wouldn´t jump to conclusions so quickly as you know more than most that humans have a tendency to diagnose themselves with psychological problems and then stress themsevles out because they end up fitting the symptoms, like in a self-induced disorder. I think that can happen with memory loss as well; i´m sure you still remember a load of things, but that is overshadowed for every one tiny thing that you don´t remember because you think it´s proof that your not as sharp at recalling info as you used to be, but we´re all human and that happens a lot. Also, memory recollection is also tied to other factors such as amount of sleep, sleep patterns, nutrition, emotional state and so that could also easily be a factor. At the end (oh and by the way i love that sketch, i had seen it before but i didn´t know who it was by) you say that we´re dying one minute at a time and that we need to use the time that we have to something purposeful, but studying is purposeful. I can somewhat understand your "fear of trying" as it is a "fear of failure

[fiercenailbunny]

This time of year is rough. I've been spending a great deal of time being busy and achieving nothing. I stare at projects and wonder why I can't remember who wrote something. (At least it's not as bad as last semester when I stared at a test for an hour and couldn't remember that Nathanial Hawthorne wrote the Scarlet Letter) I know that you're intelligent, but to limit your intelligence by not pressing to learn more weakens you. While it may not seem like anything now . . . I look at it as what good could a creative writing degree really do the world? Then I realize that it is not the degree, it is not what I learned, but rather how I apply my knowledge

[mathemajician]

This post is so much like something I would have written at 22, that it almost scares me.

What in this world deeply moves and inspires you? I think that working this out and embracing it is the key.

[holden42]

I am fairly adept at many things, but not truly proficient at any. I've avoided LJ recently, because despite all the wonderful things that happen in my life, I only seem to post dreary posts only worthy of dramatic emo journals. I enjoy putting them thoughts down, but I haven't enjoyed looking back on such senseless dribble

[mathemajician]

Yep, sounds quite a lot like me at 22