I'm at the point where I can walk around the campus and not be too worried about who I meet. It's been awhile. I need to start moving forward, moving on. It's not like me to hide all the time.
So, it's more of a test of myself than anything, walking by the popcorn room, looking for his name.
Only...only...why can't I find it? I know his real name. I know both of his names, they're not there. Fuck...
No...he was gone. Near wouldn't do that to me. He wouldn't. It was too hard on him. I look into the room, around the corner.
"He's...been supportive," I say lamely. I really don't know, other than he needed me to be myself again and now...
"I have to go," I say quickly and turn. I'm not going to run. I'm not going to run. I can feel myself shaking with the effort not to run. I can't do this to Near.
The greenhouses...I can talk to Kurama. Maybe this will be easier. God, let this be easier to deal with. I can't do this to Near.
So, it's more of a test of myself than anything, walking by the popcorn room, looking for his name.
Only...only...why can't I find it? I know his real name. I know both of his names, they're not there. Fuck...
No...he was gone. Near wouldn't do that to me. He wouldn't. It was too hard on him. I look into the room, around the corner.
Fuck...
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"I have to go," I say quickly and turn. I'm not going to run. I'm not going to run. I can feel myself shaking with the effort not to run. I can't do this to Near.
The greenhouses...I can talk to Kurama. Maybe this will be easier. God, let this be easier to deal with. I can't do this to Near.
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