i dont want you to go back. being 10 minutes down the road is a lot different from being an hour down the road.

today.....absolutly amazing :)

i miss you.

two days ago...the tears finally came. They came at a time when i wasnt expecting them but it happened anyways. A rush of emotions that were built up over the past week, it all came at the same time. Funny how i was at Whites, a place that always seems to make me happy. that night i ventured away from the swings though, to the other side of the ( Read more... )

what if....i never talk to you ever again?
what if....i never see you ever again?

tonight it almost happened. the tears almost came tonight. it was the first time i had said outloud what i had been feeling and it hurt. for some reason, i held them back. like i had to be strong or something.

but i dont know what i would do if i never saw you

soo its a no.
hearing no is getting easier.
i think im going to be ok though. i cant be mad at him. i tried and i couldnt do it.
i realized, once again, that i just liked the idea of the whole thing. i dont want anything to change. i just want to forget that we ever talked and have things stay the same.

who knows. i shall see when we hang out again.

i wish more than anything you were there today.

would you stargaze with me?
would you swing with me?
would you hold on to me forever?
i think you would

Today was absolutly amazing...yet for some reason i wasnt completly happy.

i literally spent all day with him and his family. i went to lowell, i ate dinner, went swimming at the docks and ended with a trip to whites park but it just didnt feel right. i hate that i can spend the entire day with one of my best friends and not completly enjoy myself. ( Read more... )

he sounded so said when i said i couldnt go ( Read more... )

Tonight was just amazing. it was so refreshing to hang out with the drama kids again. it had been way too long. First the party at Vickys then awards with jess and greg then friendlys with the gang and then catching up with ellen. so far summer is just as i hoped it would be, fantastic. i want to spend the summer with these kids. every one of us ( Read more... )