Reflection 11

[hime_no_karasu]

[Private: Very, Very Difficult to Hack]

Damn it all! The world must hate me. Now Fakir and Mytho know...and they weren't very happy with me. Not that I can give a damn about anything Fakir says, but...

Mytho...

You have to be wrong. You just have to. How could Kyro...? He wouldn't. He wouldn't lock you away forever if he could be out sometimes

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Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

RUE!

What happened?? What did you do? You didn't see him again, did you??

((OOC: Just realized how long Kyro had control, freaking out. XD;;))

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack 2/3

[hime_no_karasu]

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Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

*trying to mask her emotions and ends up sounding cold* ...Fine. Forgive me for trying to be a good friend.

Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

*snaps* A good friend?! What sort of good friend goes behind my back and nearly costs me my relationship with my girlfriend?!!?

FINE! You want to know?? I was supposed to go on a date with Ahiru yesterday! And Kyro probably went instead, and who knows what he did with her there!! Maybe she'll break up with me! That would make you happy, wouldn't it?!

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

*once again feeling guilt bubble up inside her and hating it* Damn it, Mytho, why do you have to be so good at making me feel? I never did that on purpose! I didn't know Ahiru was there, I never meant to hurt her or you! And if I'd told you, would you have felt any better?

*shocked by this* Kyro...Ahiru...? W-why would he..? *subconsciously hears Kyro's old comment in her head about Ahiru being "softer" than he expected and feeling a large flash of jealousy* Unless he was trying to break them up, to make Mytho miserable...

...No. Because you wouldn't be. ...You really think so poorly of me? Believe it or not, I do care about you and Ahiru.

Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

What would've made me felt better would be you not doing it at all!!

Well, you certainly have an odd way of showing it. Maybe you do care about us, I don't know, but you care about yourself more.

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

And remained in the dark about Kyro forever, like you want Ahiru to be? I thought relationships are made of two people sharing their feelings and their problems with each other. What you're doing to Ahiru is just as dishonest as what I did and what Fakir did when he lied to you, and you're doing it because you care for Ahiru. *knows how hurtfully honest the statement is, but is too angry to keep herself from saying it*

...You're starting to sound a lot like Fakir. *comment does make her heart hurt, eyes flash* I care about my own interests as well, yes...I think most people do; not everyone is a saint like you and Ahiru. If I could care about nothing but you, my world would be complete...but you don't want that, because I'm not Ahiru.

Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

That's...That's...That's entirely different!! Don't you understand how DIFFICULT this is?! To have to push people away, hold them at arm's length, because there's a side of you that would do anything to hurt them just to get at you?! And do you realize just how much more difficult you're making it for me??

Maybe because I'm starting to realize that all this time I was defending you Fakir was right! I'm not a saint, obviously. Not with him around. I just don't stab people in the back when they trust me!

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

It's a lot less different that you think. ...But that's the thing, Mytho. You don't have to push them away if you open yourself up to them. You're making it difficult on yourself, having to hide the darker side of you from everyone only to have it burst out when no one knows how to react to it.

... *can't think about Mytho agreeing with Fakir* Again and again Ahiru and you show kindness when it's not necessary...one more thing that makes you different from me and so goddamn perfect for each other. You see me accepting and caring for all of you, as I've told before that I want to do, as stabbing you in the back?

Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

I have to! I just...I just have to...

It's not caring! Kyro doesn't want to just live peacefully, he wants me gone. How many times do I have to tell you until you understand? He's using you to get to me, he's trying to hurt me enough to destroy me!

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack 1/2

[hime_no_karasu]

I...I... ...He wouldn't.

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

He wouldn't. I won't believe it.

Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

FINE, THEN! Think whatever you want, but don't expect me to--

...

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

Mytho...are you...? *reaches a hand out as if to touch his shoulder*

Private to Rue//difficult to hack

[magicalmophead]

*throws out his arm to block his hand, glaring* DON'T TOUCH ME! Just...just leave me alone!

Private to Mytho//difficult to hack

[hime_no_karasu]

*recoils* Mytho, I...you look like you're in pain, you...