Reflection 11
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Damn it all! The world must hate me. Now Fakir and Mytho know...and they weren't very happy with me. Not that I can give a damn about anything Fakir says, but...
Mytho...
You have to be wrong. You just have to. How could Kyro...? He wouldn't. He wouldn't lock you away forever if he could be out sometimes...if all else, he knows I care about you...and he does care about me. He does. ...Even if he did say it would depend on how Mytho behaved... He wouldn't do it.
And why...why would you ever wish you could lock him away forever if you could? Why must both of you hate each other so much when you're part of each other...and I care about both of you so much? Why...?
Damn it...why can I never do anything right?
...I wish I could explain everything to Ahiru, to reassure her it wasn't her fault or anything...even though I hate that she's with Mytho, she's still so kind and innocent, and I hate to admit it, but I feel a friendship to her as well. But Mytho doesn't want to tell her about Kyro, and it's not my place to overrrule his will. I've hurt him enough...and that fact is hurting me so much...
Everyone I care about I hurt... Why does that bitch of an orphanage head who named me have to be right now, of all times? Everyone I have any feelings for I have and will hurt...
...The Rue of everyone's existance.
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((OOC: And so Rue again retreats so she can sulk a bit. Odile is prowling around the house at her leisure; most likely she might visit Autor out of everyone in the house, but peeps in the house, feel free to interact with her, she's a very active and smart little kitty. Also, to everyone, feel free to talk to Rue, even if she is depressed; the mun frankly thinks angst is delicious and likes Rue to be as angsty as possible. =3))