Oh.

[hiddendaze]

It's 9.51am and I just wept to my mum on the phone. I never thought I'd get homesick. I suppose it's easy to feel homesick when you don't know when your next pay is coming and no one will answer your emails.

horriblebeautifulsofargoddamnexpensivelondoniadoreandhateyou.

The point is, I have been a little preoccupied :)

On the upside, I think

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[out_fox]

Is it time for us to send food packages? *has visions of you flailing about with hunger in a aesthetically pleasing, yet hungry, emo manner in London.*

[hiddendaze]

No, I gathered together enough this morning to buy a loaf of bread -- made my day! And I'm housesitting from tomorrow so I can raid their stores, no problem.

Ha, I'm chuffed that you imagine I could starve aesthetically.

[ex_silverni]

London is expensive and they do not justify it in any way at all. You know what else is expensive? PUBLIC TRANSPORT. And is it worth it, with the potential threat of being stabbed? No.

I'm sorry you have to put up with this; the world is a bitch.

[hiddendaze]

It's the bestest place if you have your transport sorted and groceries in the cupboard and just a little spending money, but when you don't ... it's panic-inducing.

I usually buy a travelcard at the start of the month - take the pain in one blow and then live in sweet oblivion for 30 days. Funny thing is, I was telling a friend the other day, one of the big things I'll miss about London is the public transport. It's expensive and London Transport is realiably unreliable but you can get from A to B to C in a fairly straightforward manner. So not the case in Brisbane ...

[mrsronweasley]

I'm sorry. :( I remember what it's like, being away from home, poor and lonely. I'm so sorry you're going through that, too. I hope things get better. London is heinously expensive, and can get overwhelming and lonely, like any huge city. I was in Brighton, and being poor there didn't really work that well, either.

What's the point? I don't know. I hope things start looking up soon.

*huge huge hugs*

[hiddendaze]

It's horrible being poor anywhere but ... like, it's not as though I live near my mum or dad at home, and they don't have money anyway, but in my head they're there and that makes things less scary. And it's strange - I think I was a bit lonely for the first couple of weeks here but then it's been 11 months of not giving a thought of home and suddenly, in the last week, I can't stop thinking about it.

It doesn't help being a control freak and having to move out and hand in a dissertation in two weeks and then ... what? where? how?

I'm glad you dropped a line, it's nice to share glum-panic stories. *hugs like crazy*

[mrsronweasley]

Just having your parents in the approximate area helps sometimes. I was having serious mom-issues when I was living in England, so that I didn't get TOO homesick (and I really, really did just start typing that as homosex... *head desk*) but it's the knowledge that if they were close, you could come over and have a meal warmed up for you, and maybe even given a hug. It's a comfort, childhood thing, I suppose. When I was extremely poor in Long Island, my boyfriend's parents moved there from Pennsylvania, because his dad found a new job, and suddenly, it wasn't quite as if we were fighting against the world to make ends meet. We'd go there, and do our laundry, get a wonderful dinner (Indian food...all the time...). It's that kind of security that's hard to live without when everything is so uncertain. And the 'what, where, how' questions are so hard to cope with. :( GAH! I'm not being helpful. But I know how you feel. It sucks, but it WILL get better. Sooner or later, things will get resolved - you'll hand in your dissertation (and we'

[hiddendaze]

as if we were fighting against the world to make ends meetThat's it! You go on and on and you get through a lot of stuff and then one day it all hits you and you're overwhelmed and you just want your mum or dad to fix it for you, or at least hold your hand while you do it or pat you on the back afterwards. That's probably something we'll never completely grow out of, huh? I mean, I'm a pretty bad daughter in terms of keeping in touch but it made me feel so much better to speak to my mum, even if speaking to her did make me cry, finally (incidentally, your last comment also made me cry, but I think that was related to my just returning to my room after unplanned tears in front of my flatmates. oh crap, today is the day indeed). The good thing is ... well I always thought I would hate leaving London, and I know I will be sad as hell when the day comes, but it won't be all bad, you know? I'm glad I can feel happy about home because I always really wondered about that

[adolph_loos]

*Hug* is some sort of care package needed to show up snotty London with its high rolling ways? I don't think I have your addy, though...

If Stuart is djing you MUST take pictures & send him my love & possibly tie him up & mail him overseas to me with the assurance that I am very accomadating & pretty cute. Or you know, just take pictures & send him my love. I'll be seeing him soon! Ahhhh I am so excited -- I suspect I will get there at 6 am for a 12 pm opening. Smell him for me? < /fangirling>

[hiddendaze]

Oh no, HOLD ALL CARE PACKAGES. I'm shipping stuff back next week and from there will be living out of a suitcase, or rather one big backpack (but < 20 kg) and a suitcase. A consoling care package for when I get back would be amazing, though! I was also thinking of writing you a letter. For some reason. If I did that this week or next where would I send it?

*HUG*

Do you think the email hints at that or am I getting excited over nothing? If he did appear, I could do some pre-Michelle preparation. Like, I could wear a badge with your photo in it, and he might enquire, why, is this your girlfriend? And I would say, no, it is my quite heterosexual friend in NY, isn't she darling? And then he would stare at it as we danced and by the end of the night he'd have programmed himself to zero in on "Michelle" when he sees her.

Is that a plan?

[theshoesis]

poor possum... *HUGS* hugs will be awaiting you when you get back!

oooh, i'm with you on keeping the dream alive! clearly it will be one of the boys (or sarah!), and the chances are it will be stuart... squeee!!!!

[hiddendaze]

Hugs from Melbourne, ha! I'm going to pick up the phone immediately once I'm touched down and hassle you and D :d.

Actually, it'd be neat if it were Sarah. For something different, y'know.

MWAH-MWAH.