Only Hope 3/? (Logan/Veronica) PG13

Aug 28, 2006 00:49

TITLE: Only Hope, Chapter Three
AUTHOR: herowlness/Lizzy
RATING: PG13 thus far; will be R later
CHARACTER/PAIRING: Logan/Veronica; Leticia Navarro, this chapter
SPOILERS: Diverges from canon near the end of 1x15, but has some spoilers through 1x21
WORD COUNT (chapter): 2368
WORD COUNT (in total): 9796
DISCLAIMER: Not mine. If I owned them, Logan would be naked. Always.
SUMMARY: When one thinks that they've lost their way, hope will be there to lead them home. [General note: this is a future fic that is pretty AU from current canon in a lot of ways ... :)]
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Written for the loveathons "Epic" challenge with a kick-ass beta from sarah_p. Thanks for the help! :)

Previous chapters can be found here. All my fanfiction can be found at herowlness_fic.


Just a quick recap for everyone (since it's been too long since I last posted, and I don't want anyone to be overly confused):
+Veronica is Jake's biodaughter, even though Keith is still her father, so far as the rest of the world is concerned.
+Keith and Alicia are married, as are Lianne and Jake.
+Celeste killed Lilly because Lilly learned that Jake might not actually be her biological father.
+Logan and Veronica never dated in high school.

With that out of the way, here we go!

ONLY HOPE, CHAPTER THREE

Hope is only the love of life. - Henri-Frédéric Amiel

"Veronica, this four-year-old terror is my daughter, Esperanza," Logan introduces in a tone that belies the disapproving nature of his words. His eyes twinkle brightly as they rest on the dark-haired girl who has her arms wrapped around his neck as she sits in his arms.

Veronica consciously wipes the shock from her face and smiles at Esperanza and Logan. Despite her accepting outward appearance, inside she's reeling from the revelation that Logan has a family.

Then again, Logan had always sought out love and affection - he'd just had terrible taste in women for so long. The fact that he finds such joy in being a family man shouldn't, and doesn't, surprise her. The fact that she's heard next to nothing about his wife and daughter in the newspapers is surprising, however, given the affinity that paparazzi had always had for Logan's adolescent antics. Veronica rationalizes that Logan probably guards the privacy of his family zealously; he always hated the limelight and photogs, so it isn't that hard to believe that he'd take every necessary precaution to keep his family out of the public eye.

Still, after everything that they shared, growing up amidst both good times and bad, it hurts to think that he didn't invite her to his wedding. Sure, they'd lost touch after high school - in large part due to his apparent inability to hit "reply" in his email account - but she'd told him things, about her mother and Lilly, that she never told anyone else. Given the fact that his friendship with Duncan appears to have survived and even thrived over the years, her brother was probably invited, which means that there are two men whose asses she has to kick. Later.

"Esperanza, this is Veronica. She was one of my best friends when I was in high school."

Is that all she was to him? To hear their relationship reduced to something so simply phrased hurts. They were more than just "best friends." They were each other's confidants, lifelines. They were co-survivors of the raging waters of their disasterous teenage years.

She's probably being too hard on him - he's just simplified what she meant to him once upon a time down to a four-year-old's understanding. Explaining everything that they'd survived together - Lilly, their mothers, and high school in general - would probably be too much for the little girl.

Breathe deeply, Veronica tells herself, feeling her temper rise more than it has in years. Neptune in general - and Logan in particular - has always had a way of getting under her skin. That's exactly why she left the tiny town far behind at her first opportunity.

"Niña, I told you not to run off on me," she hears a warm voice behind her chastise some little girl - likely Esperanza. She turns to see a familiar face that she can't quite place. The older woman has long black hair, which is streaked with gray and pulled back into a tight bun at the nape of her neck. She appears friendly, but it's clear the years have not treated her well as she has worn lines on smiling face. Still, she has a smile on her lips, and happiness shines in her warm brown eyes, so it appears she has few complaints about the hand life has dealt her. She looks content in her loose-fitting maroon dress, and Veronica has to hide a grin when she notices the knitting needles sticking out of her handbag. If only she'd had foresight enough to sneak in some form of entertainment to keep her mind from wandering during the ceremony.

"I've got her, Lettie, thanks," Logan responds, and Veronica has to fight to avoid showing her surprise. Leticia Navarro - Weevil's grandmother, of all people - is watching over Logan's daughter? Looking again at the dark cast of the girl's skin and her jet black hair, Veronica can't help but wonder if there's some familial tie to explain this unlikely scenario.

"Nonsense. You've got wedding duties yet to do, and this little one and I are going to find a toy shop before the reception."

"She doesn't need any more toys. She has plenty," he says, laying a soft kiss on his daughter's forehead.

Esperanza is watching their conversation closely, clearly wanting another toy - even if she does already have "too many."

"She only has too many because you two can't go anywhere without finding her something new. You can't refuse her anything," the older woman admonishes.

"No, I can't," he admits wryly. "You've got the credit card?"

"Sí, Mr. Echolls," she nods, collecting Esperanza from her father's arms and effectively ending Veronica's speculation about the girl's maternity with the formal way Mrs. Navarro addresses her apparent employer.

"I told you to call me Logan," he says, exasperated, rolling his eyes in a way that implies they've had this conversation many times before.

"Sí, señor. Good to see you again, Veronica."

"You too, Mrs. Navarro," Veronica responds with a grin.

"Come along now, angel," she instructs, taking Esperanza by the hand and leading her away.

"Well," a warm voice says, drawing their attention back to the receiving line where Mr. and Mrs. Paquette, along with a good half-dozen other guests, have long since proceeded past the bridal couple. "Don’t you two just have the most adorable little girl!"

Veronica and Logan clear their throats uncomfortably and exchange a glance. An awkward silence falls between them until Logan speaks up.

"No, Mrs. Spencer, Esperanza isn't Veronica's daughter. Veronica is actually living out in New York City now. She's in a serious relationship, from what I hear."

Veronica nods emphatically in response, thankful that Logan could easily dismiss the statement since she was too tongue-tied in disbelief to make much sense at the moment.

"Oh, really, dear?" the woman replies easily. "Noah and I are talking about taking a trip out that way. What parts of the city should we make sure to visit?"

"Broadway is a must see," Veronica offers, the theater being the first thing to pop into her head. "You'll probably want to try to order tickets ahead of time so you can make sure you can get seats."

"That sounds like an excellent idea, doesn't it, Liz?" the man at her side - presumably Noah Spencer - accedes. "Thanks for the tip."

"My pleasure," she responds as she oh-so-casually peeks behind them to get a look at how much longer she has to stand in seemingly endless receiving line.

After the Spencers move past, Veronica hears a very familiar voice greet her, and her face lights up in a grin.

"You looked great up there, Veronica. I almost felt bad for Duncan, knowing that he wasn't marrying the most beautiful woman in the place. Marrying his step-sister would be bad form, though, wouldn't it?"

She forces a laugh, trying not to think of the two years she'd spent dreaming of the very day when she would marry Duncan and of how the two of them would live side-by-side - in nearly identical mansions, of course - with Logan and Lilly. Nick doesn't know about any of that. He doesn't need to know about any of that. That's all in the past, and it will never be again, for so many reasons. Why tell him that she not only dated the man who is now her brother but that she also slept with him at a party almost ten years ago? It would only create trouble, and Veronica has already had more than enough of that in her lifetime.

While in New York, Veronica has refined the art of streamlining her life - analyzing a given situation and determining what is essential and what is superfluous. She focuses on the important things and pays no heed to those that have minimal impact on her life.

She typically considers her childhood experiences to be among those superfluous things.

That's not to say she doesn't spend time with her brothers or with her parents. She does. And that doesn't mean that Nick doesn't know anything about her past - he knows what she deems necessary, what she considers to be the abridged version. She doesn't want to relive everything that she had to go through when she was younger, and she doesn't want his pity. She's told him enough so that he understands that high school wasn't easy for her, but not so much that he feels the need to "share and grow" with her on a semi-regular basis.

Then again, Nick is an average man in the sense that he doesn't really enjoy talking about his feelings, and he understands that she's the same way. Talking about things won't change the past. Action is the only way to bring about change.

"I'm glad you're here, sweetie," she responds, moving up to kiss him lightly on the cheek before making the necessary introductions. "Nick, this is Logan Echolls, one of my best friends from high school. Logan, this is my boyfriend, Dominic Elliott."

"Nice to meet you, Logan. Was that your little one I saw running around before?"

"Yeah, probably," he says with a wry grin. "She's a little ball of fire."

"So, Nick, I'm beginning to think that I should temporarily attach you to my side so that I can show you off. After all, Mr. and Mrs. Spencer just thought that Esperanza was Logan's and my daughter!"

"She doesn't look a thing like either one of you," he responds confusedly before the realization of what he might have implied crosses his features. "I just mean, with her dark coloring, she couldn't possibly biologically belong to the pair of you."

"Well, now that Angelina Jolie has adopted baby number seventeen, the concept of international adoption isn't nearly as foreign as it once was. I'm guessing that they figured that's what happened."

"Oh, my poor Veronica," Nick teases, laying an indulgent open-mouthed kiss on her forehead. "Don't worry - I'll protect you from people who are trying to foist other people's children onto you."

Logan chuckles. "Don't worry about Esperanza. She may be a handful, but she's all mine. I have no plans to give her up. Besides, the two of you might have children of your own soon enough. After all, you've been dating for a few years, right?"

"It'll be four years in February," Veronica confirms. "But we're not going to have any kids."

"Maybe not right now, but you two have plenty of time."

"No, not ever. I - we decided that we don't want children. We're going to be selfish and spend all of our time on each other rather than adding anyone else to the mix," she explains lightly. "Besides, you know as well as I do that I probably don't have the patience necessary to be a good mother."

"I think you could be an excellent mom if you wanted to be," Logan responds quietly, clearly taken aback by her response. "I'm not trying to tell you guys what to do. I mean, I know from personal experience that it's a waste of time to try to tell Veronica to do anything. But I just know that having a child is like nothing else I've ever known. Yeah, there's a lot of responsibility, but Esperanza makes me happier than I ever thought possible."

He laughs again and smiles brightly at the two of them in turn. "I'm sorry - I got a little carried away. It's great to meet you Nick. I'm just glad to hear that you're making Veronica happy. She's got very high standards, which I'm sure you realize."

"Oh, she does," he teases with a grin. "But after four years, I think I've finally figured out the secret to keeping her - and all women - happy."

"Really?" Logan asks, a conspiratorial grin on his features and a lighthearted sparkle in his eyes. "Care to share?"

"It's all about keeping them happy between the sheets," he returns with a smirk, and Veronica can't help but roll her eyes.

"If my father had overheard you say that, you'd be running for your life right now," she warns, ignoring her confused subconscious after his uncharacteristic remark. Generally speaking, Nick is sincere and straightforward. He's considerate of her feelings, and he knows how uncomfortable she is talking about their sex life in private, let alone in public.

Pushing that thought from her mind, she continues on. "Even if he knows that I'm not as pure as he likes to pretend I am, my sex life is one thing I'm sure he'd prefer not to learn anything about."

"Fair enough," Nick responds, kissing her softly on the lips. "Mum's the word, I promise. Nice meeting you, Logan," he concludes with a nod of his head.

"Nice meeting you too, Nick," Logan returns with a grin.

"I'll see you at the reception, honey," he says by way of parting before stealing one last, quick kiss. Veronica watches him walk away and is surprised to realize that Nick was the last in the line.

"Thank God that's done," she says with a sigh of relief. "I've never been so bored in my life. All this mindless schmoozing is one thing I most definitely do not miss about Neptune."

Logan looks at her as he leads her inside to take all the necessary photographs and to sign the papers as the witnesses to the wedding, and she sees something in his eyes. She can't quite distinguish what it is, and she's sad to note that she clearly doesn't know him as well as she once did. Of course, she could hardly expect things to remain unchanged after so many years apart.

She does have a month's vacation to spend in California before she needs to return to her job in New York, though. She wants to spend time some of that time with Logan - if he's willing - to get to know him again.

Even with all the time that has passed between them without communication, she's amazed by how easily she and Logan have fallen back into their comfortable rapport. It's not too hard to believe that he'll want to spend time with her as well, right?
CHAPTER FOUR

I apologize for the continued infrequency of posting, but I do hope that you're enjoying this piece anyhow. I'm having a lot of fun writing it, and I really wish that I had more free time to devote to writing, so that I could post this much quicker than I am at the present time. However, with classes starting "today" (it is technically after midnight, after all), I don't really know what to expect from my class schedule. Hopefully, it won't be so demanding as to leave me minimal time to write.

All ramblings aside, I would *love* to hear what you think - good, bad, ugly. And on the topic of *not* ugly, in case anyone is curious, Noah Spencer looks like the absolutely delicious Jensen Ackles - a shout-out to a friend (liz_spencer) who has been a fabulous fanfiction friend in multiple fandoms. (and, no, not actually in any fandoms in which JAckles was actually involved) And now I'm rambling again.

Since some have asked, Nick - Veronica's boyfriend - is being modeled after Bruce Michael Hall.


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vm: logan/veronica, fic: post, series: only hope, fic: chaptered, fandom: veronica mars

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