I really hate how cynical i am and how no one understands what my brain is doing. I guess ill have to figure it out, but seriously.. i feel like my brain is constantly thinking about the deepest strangest things. I can either embrace it or hate it & as of now.. im hating it. I can barley live my life without thinking all the time. Shiiiit when am i ( Read more... )

Reading everyone live-journal is interesting. It seems like we are all so ready to grow up so fast, but we really don't know whats out there. Adolescence is the hardest of them all and it seems as though we are all dealing really well with it. At least I know I am, but at other times I feel like it's just scratching at every inch of my body and ( Read more... )

im about to shit
how much of my lj is about spencer?

aha

i know boasting is bad for your soul
but damn
hahaha thats all i gotta say about that.

I haven't updated in so long.
I love my life, except my girls are in NY
but i still have Chelsi and Marci

I'm happy
and summer is really good

I feel like I'm never going to be right. I can't stand this anymore. Time and time again I ask God to help me forget and help me understand why things aren't going my way and why this always has to hurt over and over again. I still have no answers, but i'll get mine soon. I'm just tired of living an everyday life on a hopeless dream that isn't even ( Read more... )

My birthday was so good this year.
you don't even know, & i just can't explain.

I love my life and I love my friends
I feel like giving everyone that i dont like a big hug.

You don't deserve him, he deserves better, he's one of the decent ones in this world and I wouldn't want that to be wasted on someone that I don't feel as though is good enough. Jealousy, spite, resentment are not apart of what I have to say. Don't compromise, set your standards and go with it. Your standards deserve to be higher then the sky, ( Read more... )

I'm so happy that I'm happy and I'm so happy about everything.
7 days till the best day of my life. GOOODBYE.

I just read all of "Go Ask Alice" today and I loved every second of it. it was so gooood ( Read more... )