'When you believe without knowing you believe that you are damaged at your core, you also believe that you need to hide that damage for anyone to love you. You walk around ashamed of being yourself. You try hard to make up for the way you look, walk, feel. Decisions are agonizing because if you, the person who makes the decision, is damaged, then ( Read more... )

The meal isn't over when I'm full. It's over when I hate myself.

-Louis C. K.
So I've been trucking along on this diet and I started weighing myself a couple days ago to see just how much weight had dropped. I started this fat enough that I basically went past the max weight of the scale at the doctor's office so I'm not sure exactly how much I've ( Read more... )

“LSD burst over the dreary domain of the constipated bourgeoisie like the angelic herald of a new psychedelic millennium. We have never been the same since, nor will we ever be, for LSD demonstrated, even to skeptics, that the mansions of heaven and gardens of paradise lie within each and all of us.”

-Terence McKenna

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"People are supposed to fear the unknown, but ignorance is bliss when knowledge is so damn frightening."
-Laurel K. HamiltonHad an appointment with the primary care and she glanced over the x-ray and ekg and signed off on the renal biopsy. I guess that means that there wasn't anything heinously wrong with either, which is sort of a relief. This ( Read more... )

I'd gotten fat ( Read more... )

If there's one thing you can say about kids, it's that they are little plague rats. I used to go without colds for years at a time, mostly because I don't tend to associate with that many people to begin with and those I do, aren't usually covered in snot and germs. I caught my last cold right after Maddie's birthday party last year and it looks ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is Maddie's birthday party. Her actual birthday isn't until the 7th but we can't hold it next Saturday because of Shelley's engagement celebration dinner. Just like what they had for Connie (though I missed it being in Chicago at the time), it'll be a full blown Chinese banquet with all the assorted rigamarole. Overall, I'm not a big fan ( Read more... )

So I went to the doctor yesterday for the first time in quite a while. There were some issues that ended up conspiring to keep me from there, not the least of which is my dislike for doctors. I don't think I have ever had a really positive experience going to the doctor and usually, all I'm hoping for is that there isn't some piece of truly ( Read more... )

This entry should be subtitled, 'Why I'm a complete fucking moron ( Read more... )

I finally made it back home around 10pm last night. It seems that even with the extra sleep I got during the con, I was more exhausted then I thought. I hadn't planned on taking that 3 hour nap in the middle of the day and it only goes to show how tired I must've been given that I was able to sleep in that heat at all. If I hadn't been woken by a ( Read more... )