I get to see Steve today!!! I miss him soooo much! And am so excited! I feel like a giddy little school girl!

I love Steven!

http://www.myspace.com/heidiemmendorfer

I am officially lame now....

I'm on My Space - be my friends?!?!
Karianne - join me in being lame won't you?! :)

I love being lame! Bitch!

And by that I mean the pain, heart ache and anticipation. Steve and I talked today and we both agreed that we love each other way to much to throw this out. We're giving it another go. THANK YOU GOD!! I know it's gonna work this time, I'm 100% positive we will live happily ever after. Things aren't perfect right now, but we are working on it ( Read more... )

I didn't cry yesterday....I made Jenny cry, but I didn't. Not saying I didn't feel like it, or want to, or push it away - but I didn't cry.

Not looking forward to today...

So this breakup thing isn't getting any easier whatsoever. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't last a whole day at work. My life is falling apart. I want to just give up on everything. I wanna drop out of school, quit sorority and just go to my stupid job then back home only so I can pay for my car. And you know what everyone keeps saying? ( Read more... )

Last night it all came to an end. He says maybe we just need some real time apart, or maybe we're really not meant for one another. We are not losing one another for good. After we get through this hard time, we will be friends. His promise. This would be so much easier if we hated each other, but our breakup was full of hundreds of I love you ( Read more... )

It might actually be over. I've never been so scared, or felt so sick in my life. This sucks.

Well so much for me being happier. I'm told I'm taking it out of context and that I'm being to sensitive but how does he expect me to act when the man I love, and "knew" I was going to be with for the rest of my life tells me that he's skeptical about out relationship working out. He says he loves me, and he wants to be with me - then what's the ( Read more... )

If there's one thing I hate (well of course there's more than one) but I definately hate waiting on people and being at their beckon call. I hate when you make plans with someone and they say they'll call you - how long am I supposed to wait? When do I get ready? It just irritates me. I guess it has to do with me being in control. Control ( Read more... )