i guess I pretty much am really just journal-ing now. It's 2012. I'm head over heels in love with a guy named Matt Milhollen. He's gone right now for a punishment for an old crime. It's hard without him but I'll survive. I've lost 150 lbs. I've grown as a person. I have no use for the person that used to make my world turn. I've been through ( Read more... )

The thing is I'm growing up. Which is a hard thing. I still feel lost in life. Disconnected from my ultimate future ( I just typed past... I wonder if that means something).  I made one of the biggest choices in my entire life. I was strong. Firm. and I'm proud of that... but there is a part of me that hopes it will be such a shock that it will put ( Read more... )

I just went back through my journal ( Read more... )

It is 2007. I'll be 22 year old in a few days. I forgot just how much I went through in my teen years. Damn. I cried today just re-living it all. I am with a guy named Greyson West, and he is amazing and wonderful. I wouldn't trade him for anyone in the world. I live in little rock, ar. and I am yet to have a stable life. The world is beautiful ( Read more... )

I haven't been here in so long ( Read more... )

O wow ( Read more... )

I know its been almost a year since I've done anything with this, but I really wanted to write a little. I've been neglecting my thoughts. My love life is too confusing to even begin to explain... mainly because a huge part of it is a secret, and also because I'm probably going to spend the rest of my life waiting on someone I can't have even ( Read more... )

the panamation

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Well. I feel much better. I don't know why I was soo dramatic about that thing *see last entry*. Those feelings were pretty much out of my head, I think it just caught me off gaurd. I love Ryker to death... but it seems we are much better off as friends. I really do thank everyone for the comments... especially ryker. I think i'll be in b-ville ( Read more... )

So.. this will be really honest. Nobody freak out or make jokes about this please. I feel we are all adult enough for me to be able to write my freakin feelings in my own journal without it causing an uproar ( Read more... )