worse than cigarettes

Mar 28, 2012 13:18


Pairing: gd/top
Rating: r
Summary: post-disbandment. ar. sister fic to this, but can be read alone. (angst warning)
2006 words~
And he still smokes, if anything, more than ever. But that’s not a surprise. )

fandom: big bang, pairing: gd/top, length: oneshot

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minalovesgtop March 28 2012, 17:41:35 UTC
OH MY GOD, you wrote a sequel. Didn't read it yet, back reading can't forget what constantly reminds you, and I read it a few weeks ago, saved the link and read it over and over again, and I'm supposed to study for my spanish exam tomorrow, but HELL no, Imma read this first and study in the middle of the night. *no regrets* I'll be back when I read it <33

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heads_bang March 28 2012, 17:53:02 UTC
LMAO you're fast, i love it~ and thank you so much, it means a lot, im really glad you like my fic /ugly sobs
tell me what you think, 'kay?
and well study for your exam too, quiero bieuno en espanol examen~

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minalovesgtop March 28 2012, 18:00:10 UTC
He wants to tell him that he loves him, kind of always has, but he's scared, really fucking scared. He wants to tell him all these things and so much more.

But he doesn't. Damn creature of habit.

"Ah, that's good." He says instead.

THIS broke my heart. Oh my God, I love this so much, can't control my feelings. I didn't cry, because I didn't let myself, I knew that if I did, I wouldn't get it together too soon so I only let my heart cry. You're a GREAT author. PLEASE continue this, it's so worth it. Best angst I have read in a while :') haha, I know a happy ending would have ruined the raw reality of this, but my romantic mind kind of wished for one anyways x) Never mind though, like this it's just perfect.

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heads_bang March 29 2012, 00:02:58 UTC
wah thank you very much, you're so sweet~ haha i quite like this post abandonment universe too. and im like you, i love angst and misunderstandings and held in feelings cuz lol they're just so more feels...but eventually id love for them to stop floundering around and just admit they want each other already.

thanks again for reading and commenting dear, good luck on your exam~

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memai69 March 28 2012, 19:35:47 UTC
it's 2:26 am n you broke me with these wonderfully masochistic crushing feelings, give me a tourniquet, wife. but i think you did give me the tourniquet cuz (despite my fucking poor vision) i could feel that they would go back to each other
/need to kiss you

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heads_bang March 29 2012, 00:05:36 UTC
BABY you were up so late, wae you up so late, waiting up for me????hahaha
and haha yes they are stupid, just floundering around like fish out of water when they so clearly love eachother, they'll come around tho~
thank you for reading and comment bb. and hope you do more than kiss me /so dreadfully obvious winku

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memai69 March 30 2012, 19:34:29 UTC
they just can't seem to quit each other
n you are safe here with me cuz i will love you good *grins*

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snoaz March 29 2012, 06:34:04 UTC
This was heartbreaking. Beautifully written, but heartbreaking.

He thought he would have lost interest in pink and hair dyes and tattoos, but his collection of magenta shirts and shoes, his blue-stained pillows, and his full sleeves say otherwise. And he still smokes, if anything, more than ever. But that’s not a surprise.

What is, on the other hand, is him.
Great opening lines. :)

“You shouldn’t open your door in the middle of the night when you’re drunk, fucking asshole.” Jiyong yells before he leaves, pretty sure that Seunghyun doesn't even hear him.
I really liked this line for some reason, it seems such a Jiyong thing to do?

"Ah, that's good." He says instead.
Noooo. I kept hoping for a happy ending but I guess it wouldn't fit the fic. So I think that yes, this was the better ending (no matter how sad it might be).

(By the way, the last sentence, shouldn't you use a comma instead of a period?)

Anyway, great piece and I hope to read more from you :-)

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heads_bang March 29 2012, 14:12:37 UTC

... )

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lovelyable March 29 2012, 14:15:54 UTC
oh godddd i've failed you!! ;___; i'm so sorry for leaving you hanging. i suck 8( but i remember reading this over and thinking it was good, so as a terribly late apology for being MIA.... i'm just going to read this and comment extensively!!

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lovelyable March 29 2012, 14:37:20 UTC
oh man ;_____; ugh noriiiii the part where gd is trying to substitute top with girls, that whole part, the writing there is really, really lovely. everything is beautiful there and nothing everything hurts. the details about what he misses about top are great, and i think the part about him wiping her lip is ansnlaksna sobs. i could praise you about that part all day ( ... )

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heads_bang April 3 2012, 14:19:20 UTC
thank you thank you for this concise comment i needed it~ and yay im glad you like that part the most, im pleased with it too and im just amused/frustrated that that paragraph took me like 5 minutes to write when i was like racking my brains on the other parts. and yeah i agree with you and i think i could have egged things on a little more but idk sometimes i get impatient and i just want to finish the fic because im tired of dealing with it. lol i get so easily annoyed...
and yeah the more i think about it GD isn't much of the crying type, or at least in that situation. i think it would have been more appropriate for him to get angry and petty more than anything else, the more i think about it...
oh well, next time~

and no need to keep apologizing it's fine. im glad you could give me your insight now. and haha ill take you up on that IM.
haha thanks for reading and commenting summer~ -huggles-

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heads_bang April 3 2012, 14:13:41 UTC
lol ive been mia too so sorry for the late reply. no worries, i know you've been busy and its totally fine. -hugs-

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atenais_pala March 30 2012, 21:43:08 UTC
I have to confess that I was afraid to read this story, since I knew that it would be sad. GTOP angst makes so much sense that this distresses me. Actually, I think this sequel can work without "can't forget what constantly reminds you". I felt as I was reading a totally new story from the same universe (post-disbandment ( ... )

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heads_bang April 3 2012, 14:12:53 UTC
hahaha avoiding me cuz i write angst. lol its okay. i admit it, kinda have a penchant for the sad stuff.

and everything you said about how time doesn't change us feels entirely true. im older and an adult now but i feel more lost and uncertain than i ever did as a child.

i hope to write a happy fic too~ lol i love this post-disbandment universe but i do intend to make the sequel (if i ever get around to writing it) less angsty. trust me, im frustrated with with tabi and ji as well with their floundering around when they obviously like each other.

thank you for reading and commenting~ ♥

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