I Am Too Old For This Shit. . .

[hansons_angel]

Not even sure why I am posting here, it's been so long since I've written anything, fiction/fanfic, personal stuff, anything. I lurk here every day, multiple times, read my Friends' posts, the SPN fanfiction and other select fanfic that my Friends so amazingly write, comment not nearly enough but silently cheer on/love/and feel blessed by the

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[izzie7]

I'm so sorry - what a difficult, messy situation for you, when nothing is exactly wrong, but it's not exactly right either. It does sound as if the job nearer home will be a resolution, and in time sounds like it should work out well for you, but at the moment it won't be easy. Many, many hugs xx

[hansons_angel]

Thank you SO MUCH for the support. For real. Because I really have no other, given the weird-ish situation I'm in.

when nothing is exactly wrong, but it's not exactly right either.

Yes. This is it EXACTLY. I could write one book alone on this very thing because -- yes. We are doing nothing immorally or legally or ethically wrong. I'm divorced. He's single. We're both adults. Yet, it it isn't right either -- both of us at different stages/points/places in our lives where it can't work. And both of us realize it yet -- wish it were different.

But yes. Thank you for backing me up on the job thing. I need it. I really do.

*many heartfelt hugs back to you*

[arliss]

Taking the job sounds like a perfectly cromulent thing to do. Even if there wasn't this issue with this person that isn't resolving, a change would probably do you good. But, I mean, you really can't ignore the timing, now can you? It sort of seems *intentional* of the universe to offer you a graceful exit. You'd be churlish not to take it.

I admire you very much for doing the hard thing, but the best thing for both of you. I know it's difficult, but I think you're right, really. Much happiness and peace of mind to you.

[hansons_angel]

you really can't ignore the timing, now can you? It sort of seems *intentional* of the universe to offer you a graceful exit.

I really do believe this. I even mentioned how "the timing seemed right" when I told Him that i had applied for this new job, how I was ready to change things up and how everything seemed to be lining up for me to do just that. I am a HUGE believer in doors opening (and closing) when they're supposed to in our lives, and this seems to be one of those doors meant for me to walk through. . .

Thank you so much for the good thoughts. They are already beginning to give me strength and peace of mind :)

[embroiderama]

*hugs* It sounds like the new job is absolutely perfect for you right now. And wow, since you're commuting so far and the new job would be closer, you don't even need to manufacture some excuse for leaving your current job. If anybody asks, all you have to say is that driving so far was getting to be too much and everybody will understand.

[hansons_angel]

It's so true -- and everybody knows I've wanted to work in the city where I live for a long time -- more time with my boys, no harrowing drive to work in the winter months -- all of that. So they will understand, not really question it. If they make me the right offer, I have no reason to turn it down. I mean, the job security is always on my mind, but no job is safe anymore, even the one I currently have. . .

I've been following your new job with so much interest, luv -- good for you for taking that step. I'd be lying if I said you haven't been an inspiration for me to move on -- you definitely have. I thank you, as always, for being so honest with your life, it's definitely given me so much encouragement : ) *hugs you back*

[idlewild_]

I hope that the new job pans out well for you. I do think that aside from other issues, shorter commutes and lower stress are so good at promoting contentment, if not blinding happiness. I'm sorry that the impetus for change is this guy and the situation, but it does sound untenable in the long run. It's hard when being with someone and not being with them are equally shitty choices.

*hugs*

[anilkex1]

Hm. I just read this post, and I'm wondering how the job move went. I don't think the issue is not dating someone you work with. There are an unlimited number of situations you can find yourself in and end up involved with someone you want but don't want but need and don't need. Making difficult decisions in the short term for long term stability suck ass. (insert divorce story here) And the cliche response is that time will heal this wound, my child.

The reality?

You're making a bold move *for yourself*, and I commend you. It doesn't have to be the result of someone doing wrong things. This is simply an action that is the right thing. Or as right as you think it is at the moment.

I hope you'll give an update somehow. I'd like to know how you're doing.