Well, I am like pissed about tomorrow 5/25/06... because I have an appointment with my shrink and we are probably going to end up pissing eachother off again... errrr...

So, anyways... I am most likely going to do S&I tonight before bed just to feel better... I just need it to turn out right or that will piss me off...

I fucking hate feeling and being invisible... I mean I am like invisible in my family right now... Since my cousin Jamie has been out here I have been INBISIBLE by my family... They forgot how much I help around here and it is fucking pissing me off... EEEEERRRRR ( Read more... )

Got to be older to appreciate this one ( Read more... )

This week... I am going to be busy and pissed off and EXCITED because my Grandma gets to come home on Friday... *dances* :D

I have to go meet with a doctor guy on Tuesday...

Go to mental health on Wednesday and Thursday... *pissed off*

So, anyways that is all for now... talk to you all again soon... :)

Love,

Christa

This is fucked up, but who the hell cares... I just found out yesterday that I lost my job at Goodwill again... *rolls eyes* I am so pissed off about it, but I should have known that it was going to happen sooner or later... I will write more later when I feel like writing about the whole thing, for now this is all I would like to say about it ( Read more... )

I wasn't feeling well this last week and so I didn't get online at all... I had a migraine and it lasted longer then they normally do for me... :( I am feeling a "little" bit better now, but not totally... :( Well, I will hopefully talk to you all again soon... Hope you all are doing good... :)

Love,
Christa

I just need to try and vent some... I cut again last night... it was only 6 times and that means 3 on each ankle and they were semi-deep... but they don't look bad... Anyways, I had to go to a meeting today to see some therapist person and that went good... I can't get over my urge to self injure... I don't want to self injure, but I know that if I ( Read more... )

The other day Jamie (my cousin)... spanked me some and it was fun and felt good and he ended up breaking 2 hairbrushes on me... he hit my hand once with the belt too...
Is it weird that I would want him to spank me again...??? I mean he is my cousin... *wonders*

Love,
Christa

Well, I am so fucking out of it right now and I have been all day... I am sick of depending on a razor to get through the day too, but oh well, I will live... I only cut... *thinks* 15 times at work today so that is good... and we didn't have that much candy today either, but of course since I am on the Reidsville van they didn't let us leave ( Read more... )

I know that I am SO not going to still have my job by the end of this month (April)... The reason for that is because I have a feeling that someone is going to find out about my self injuring and then get me fired... But I don't really care because then my SSI check won't be $350 or something like that... then I will be able to still get $402.00 ( Read more... )