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[hammster]

Man I have felt so gd insecure about this art thing lately. Not in a "am I good enough to do this" way, but in a "what am I doing spending all this time and money and energy and resources on this thing which is not doing anyone any good" way. I mean I know art is what I love and enjoy doing and I know it's not meaningless or wasteful but sometimes

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[loototherah]

Art is subtle, but we all need it. It's one of those things that helps everyone on a daily basis, but most people wouldn't realize it until it's gone.

Art helps. It really does.

[hammster]

Thanks <3. I know rationally that my very existence (much less my making things) is not some kind of epic drain on the universe, but it's really feeling that way right now.

[loototherah]

Sweetheart, I can promise you there are other people who are REALLY much more of an epic drain on the universe.

Like the governor of NC, who is going budget-cutting crazy on all the state universities, to the point that education is clearly her last priority. Even though I graduated, I wanna punch her in the face.

[toi_marguerite]

/hugs

My program is having a dinner today, so I will get home kind of late, but I can get on aim after that if it would help to talk about it?

Art helps people anyways- it calms, it soothes, it beautifies and it provokes. Without it, our lives would be so much poorer.

[hammster]

/huuuuggg

If you like; I feel bad for being all AAAAAA at you so much lately though ._.a

And yeah -- just right now I feel like, does it only do that for a select group of people? Like, the people who have access to my art, maybe it enriches their lives somehow, but the myriad people who do not, surely I should be doing something more important than art for them.

[toi_marguerite]

Um, yeah, might be really late and I can't promise I'll be 100% sober, but I can be online if you need me! And dude, it's totally cool. I was 'AAAAAA' at you in the past and probably will be in the future. Seriously, it's cool. I wouldn't offer if it wasn't.

Er, but you can't... really do everything for everyone, if that makes sense? Like, yeah, there are a lot of people in the world. I don't think anyone really has done anything that benefits everyone. Even if you were a doctor or something, your skills would still be benefiting only a handful of people. :/ Wow, that was kind of depressing, sorry. Anyways, once you have developed your skills then you can make art that reaches many more people. You can't save the world all at once!

[hammster]

Pfft, it's extra enjoyable when you're not sober :'D AND OK cool if you are sure <3

Yeah, I know. And it's a bit silly because it's not like NOT doing art benefits anyone I am just having complexes upon complexes lately.

[olafpriol]

I have been there so many times you do not even know, augh, but these times pass, and I think I can safely say that you have such a gift for imagination, comedy and creativity that your very existence is a blessing to this world. So never feel like you are a waste because if you do I will come down there and hit you with a kipper.

[hammster]

Hey thanks bro that means a lot <3 AND HOW DO YOU KNOW BEING HIT BY A KIPPER ISN'T MY IDEA OF A GOOD TIME???

[olafpriol]

No problem <3

I guess I'm just awesome like that.

Icon meant with loving facetiousness, if such a thing exists.

[skalja]

You're one of the coolest humans I have had the honor to know, and your artyness is part and parcel of who you are.

Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. ♥