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[hammster]

Man I have felt so gd insecure about this art thing lately. Not in a "am I good enough to do this" way, but in a "what am I doing spending all this time and money and energy and resources on this thing which is not doing anyone any good" way. I mean I know art is what I love and enjoy doing and I know it's not meaningless or wasteful but sometimes it FEELS that way and recently it's really been bothering me. Like I should be, idk, doing something actually important or helping people or something.

Also I spent like an hour and half crying tonight I'M SO AWESOME nngh.

/goes back to making a very intricate map of a place which does not exist for her 3-D graphics project

Yaaaaay art