so i really dont know what im going to do with my life.. all i know is that im living in cali this summr and im notttttt going back to school in the fall. cant stand it. id be lying if i said there werent things i would miss, but most of those things have fallen from my grasp and i miss them already ( Read more... )

lifes just no fair.

im still somewhat drunk i believe ( Read more... )

last night was real bizarre ( Read more... )

back in new england.. missing sitting by the pool where i could hardly handle the heat of the sun. now its snowing, my toes are freezing, my tan has faded, and im forced to face reality of school at the end of the weekend ( Read more... )

im just a faceless body
lost in this vast and worthless sea
in a thousand ppl i do not know
but really they are no different from me
they all have passion
they all have fear
they all have intense confusion
and no sweet moments that are clear
they all have aspirations
high hopes and dreams
and are really that alone like me

-----jewel

ugh. im annoyed. im at work. i want to leave. i have no money so i should ( Read more... )

the older im getting the younger i feel. i feel 2 feet tall. im sad, like i want to whimper like a dog with his tail between his legs, ashamed of the many mistakes ive made and cannot change. like lifes the couch that i just shit allllll over because it seemed like a good idea at the time ( Read more... )

school girl crush.

im trying to make myself come to work more often because i just get paid to sit here and thats pretty great. ive already made $7.25 looking at shoes and talking to people online ( Read more... )