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Failure!
I just had a four year relationship end. Despite the obvious I can't help feeling like a failure at relationships. However I'm proud that I went out with a bang. I threw myself into the relationship and proposed and I filled a need I had and learned about who I am and who I want. I failed and I'm proud of it. If you're going to go down, go ( Read more... ) -
Surgery
My surgery is in two days and I am terrified. I am scared it will be canceled, that the money won't be available. I'm scared of recovery, but mostly I'm tired of waiting. I want to be sliced open and I want to be able feel something in my fingers. I have made a list of things I can't do and will be able to do after I heal from the surgery. ( Read more... ) -
Do I exist?
I am an apprentice electrician now. I will need surgery for carpal tunnel in July. and I am very interested in self-sufficient housing like Hockerton Housing Projectand Earthships. -
Banana Bread
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Bees!
I just put a nuc into our only hive. It went well. I forgot everything about how to feed them and whatnot...so I re-read the books. I'm making sugar candy to put on top of the frames and I will have a boardman feeder after a trip to the store for some corn syrup. Its noce having bees again. I want to plant some wildflowers that will help the ( Read more... ) -
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my head hurts. I want to go home. -
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the power just came back on here. I was really bored. tomorrow I will be in seattle and you people who live over there should call me or pick me up and we''l do something. yay -
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The roads are really slick from the snow and I spun out and hit a tree and possibly a fence. and the tree fell over on the hood of my car. but the car and I am fine. The bumper is a little dented but I didn't even break a headlight. I'm very glad I was in the cadillac. -
Happy thanksgiving everyone
yay thanksgiving is over and my mom only one mini panic attack. It was all very calm and familiar which is nice. and I didn't have to talk to any relatives on the phone which is yay. Also my nutritionist gave me some great ideas that helped menot eat till I puked. so I still have a corner of my stomach that prevents inteernal combustion. go me ( Read more... ) -
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my shoulder hurts. I think I pulled something. I'm going to go sulk in the tub now