hnnnnnnnngh!!!!

if i didn't love you so much, i wouldn't be doing this.  even if it seems like i don't give a fuck anymore.

i give a small fuck.  which is why i'm doing this.

wine tonight.  :3  & pizza.

i like to keep it somewhat classy.  if no one skypes/MSNs with me, i'm chatrouletting.

i'm really in to doing things for myself now that Chris & i are done.  i really didn't realize how i neglected myself to focus on saving our relationship.  tanning, getting my hair done, new piercings, travelling, gym time... it's all good.  i'm all good now.  i'm pretty bitchin'.  he's an ass.  i just feel really good lately.

he texted me last ( Read more... )

after a lovely FB-chat break up, i ventured to Chris's place to get the rest of my stuff.  surprisingly minimal crying on my part.  words were said, my stuff was packed, and i was out pretty quickly.  i'm sad, worried, pissed off, and curious about what he's doing.  but at the same time, i'm looking ahead and i'm leaving this behind.  i dealt with ( Read more... )

love the fact that i was just officially broken up with over facebook chat.

i thought that almost a year's relationship was worth more than a "i don't think this break it working" & a "i want you to keep the necklace" over facebook chat.  by someone who ~*hate*~ facebook.

i love you.  but fuck you.

 what's happened lately ( Read more... )

Honestly?  I don't know why I bother with this fucking relationship.

After chances upon chances you still go and fuck around.  The thought of me leaving you and never speaking to you again doesn't even phase you anymore.  You "love me"/care about me, you want to be with me, but you don't know how much you love me anymore or if you do.  The thought ( Read more... )

I've become such a Skypefag.  Between Aznface & Tom, Candice, Cameron, Sariel, Nigel,& ByoungJoo.... it's sad.  I never used to use it.  At all.  Ever.  But I looooovvveeee it now.  If you have Skype, you need to be addin' me up ( Read more... )

I swear, eljay, I'm trying not to abandon you again ( Read more... )

I'm balls at updating poor LJ.  I think I'm going to go through and delete useless old posts and start newwww ( Read more... )

Another over due update.  Poor eljay.

Another lot has happened.  I ended up losing that love again.  i tried getting under to get over.  Christmas came and sucked.  My love has finally come around and I couldn't be happier...for real.  I've put my foot down and brought tissues up.  I'm jobless.  I'm inbetween homes. Kitten is growing up quickly and ( Read more... )