This is just my brain barfing out my thoughts

[gysecune]

Sometimes I have these moments where I feel like I'm waking up from a dream and I've just been dropped into this life, which is funny because I've been doing things to create the life I have now. Like I just realize, "Oh my god, I'm a self-sufficient adult with a job. I have an apartment and bills and a family who cares about me and wants me to

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[distorted_r]

Yeah, I get that feeling sometimes to, but not as much because I have't gotten my degree yet. It's more like "gosh, I'm not 15 anymore, am I?"

As for the future thing..it kind of depresses me becuase regardless I'll probably be doing the same shit I do know, only I'll have a job, which leads me to believe there is no real deeper meaning to anything. XD It's strange alright.

[gysecune]

I'll probably be doing the same shit I do know, only I'll have a job, which leads me to believe there is no real deeper meaning to anything

I used to think this more when I was in school, especially when I was working on something like a long, boring paper, but I still think it sometimes now. It's like, "Why am I doing all this? Oh, yeah, so I can get a job." And it's like I'm doing everything so that I'll eventually be able to make money someday in a way that pleases me. Or pleases me more than working retail, at least.

[distorted_r]

I'm doing everything so that I'll eventually be able to make money someday in a way that pleases me.

Exactly! It all really boils down to "I want to make enough money to keep affording my hobbies." But, I guess that's just how it is for everyone, be it expensive trips, cars, whatever. XD

[gysecune]

I like that idea of walking in rings, and I think that's true. I've actually talked to some older people about this, too, and they say, "I still don't feel like an adult." So maybe everyone (or most people) have this idea of what an adult is supposed to feel like - or maybe it's just the people I've talked to. XD

[meepysocks]

When I went in Sunday, the guy came up to me and told me snapped it on his thumb. Haha. I forgot to mention it when I got to the apt. I am surprised it didn't do more damage!

[gysecune]

Yeah, it's weird because it completely destroyed the pens/pencils he put through it. I guess thumbs are stronger, though!