Gina Taylor got married. Gina Taylor got married.
I think everyone on the bride's side is a little shocked that it happened. We all showed up, but that doesn't mean that we fully believed the wedding would go without an objection, or one of them getting cold feet, or just...something Gina Taylorish. I wasn't all that worried until I found her in the guest room, but I think I was too busy thinking
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Oh, right, she should be. That shows how the hell much I'm thinking. And Carly thought I shouldn't have had my doubts about being a father, Christ.
I mean, with Julia, I'm doing alright. A lot better than I thought I would, but I'm still learning, and I still sometimes feel like I could screw the whole thing over any minute.
I don't know, Carly says I'm doing fine. As long as she thinks that, I'm alright. Everyone else can go to hell, and that goes double for Daphne. Besides, this was a minor screw up. Carly caught it, so me being an idiot doesn't make too much of a difference I think.
"Right. We'll ignore me being an idiot." I swear I'll never pull that again. Get it together Howell, Jesus.
"I don't want to take the chance, you know?"
"I know, I'm sorry. That was stupid." And I know it. Hopefully we can forget that one.
"Its Halloween. That one fits."
"Still." Gina doesn't seem to mind it. I think she thinks it's funny. That could very likely be because she's probably already working up ( ... )
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And there's no way in hell that's funny.
"She did that on purpose.""Yes she did." I tried not to crack a smile, and then realized it wasn't worth it. She knows I think this is funny. She knows it doesn't bother me at all ( ... )
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Why is Sam so happy about this? Doesn't he see how embarrassing it is? Hasn't he noticed how upset all the other women in the room seem to be? Doesn't he get it?
...How come I'm the only one who sees how this is a bad thing? We shouldn't be smiling over this. The smiling only encourages Gina to do things that call attention to the fact that we're not married, when we're okay like this. And what's more, we're happy like this.
There are a lot of married couples who wish they could find the happiness we have. Why ruin it with a wedding ring?
"It's not a bad thing, Car."To him. It's not a bad thing to him. Sam has no issues with it because he's not the one holding the bouquet. But, if the situation were reversed, I think he'd be feeling the exact same way that I do right now ( ... )
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She remembers. She remembers, but she still doesn't sound happy about it. Yeah, I might have to work some things to get that time frame going at some point.
"But how close to being ready are you?"How do I answer that and make her feel better for now? Is that even possible? And while we're at it, should I bother ( ... )
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Close enough? Close enough to what? To doing this? This? The whole wedding with the bouquet and all the people thing? When he did decide he was ready for this?
I need to breathe. Breathe and think. And not worry. Breathe, think, and stay calm. I should be happy. At some point in the future, my boyfriend would like to marry me. If I was most women, I'd be thrilled right now. Especially with us still being young, and our life being settled into something good. This shouldn't be bad. It means he loves me.
And I need to understand that we're going to do it someday because I love him too. I can't imagine my life with anyone else. We have a family, and we're trying to add onto it. So maybe, at some point, I could get over my belief that marriage is terrifying, and we could do it.
Not all marriages end in divorce, right?
"I think you probably worry about it more than you should. But we don't need to talk about it."I can live with that. I'm not ready now. I won't be for a while. There's no reason to be talking about ( ... )
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"You're welcome." I leaned down the rest of the way and kissed back, moving an arm around her comfortably.
"We'll..someday, you know?""We will." I'll make sure that one happens. One way or the other. I might have to spring it on her when I finally decide to make it happen, but it'll happen ( ... )
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Someday. We will someday. When I'm not as afraid of getting divorced and probably long after we have another baby, depending on how long it takes for us to get pregnant this time.
This experience has been a little strange to me, but I can't complain yet. With Julia, we didn't have to try. Part of the reason why we were so terrified was because we weren't expecting her. She just happened. And now, we're hoping for another one, and planning it a little. I never could have imagined us doing this.
So I guess I can assume that we'll get married in the next few years, because if we never planned on having a baby and now we're doing that, anything is possible for us.
We're just crazy enough to be up for anything at times.
"I'm not worried.""Then I'm not going to worry either ( ... )
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"Sounds good to me." I saw Gina was coming up for air long enough to have another drink, and decided it'd be a good idea to at least let her know we were leaving. "Be right back."
I got over to them, and snapped my fingers at them to get their attention before they could start going at it again. "Hey. We're gonna go, alright?"
"What? Oh, yeah, sure. Go ahead. Thanks for coming."
"Yep. See you around, Sam. Great meeting you guys by the way, you're cool people.""Thanks." I laughed and nodded to Dylan, then headed back to Carly. "And we're set." I got out the door with her, nodding to the few people who said goodbye to us on the way out ( ... )
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We survived Gina's wedding after all. And we did it without committing manslaughter, which was a good possibility for a while there. I think Sam and I should be proud of ourselves for this one.
The crazy stewardess and psychotic former best friend didn't get the better of us. We reacted to the best of our abilitiy--without violence--and then let it go. That was good. It took a lot, at least on my part, but nothing bad happened.
We still have the flight home to tackle, but I believe that we're going to be okay. If we do happen to get the same stewardess, we'll jump off that bridge when we get there. For now, we're going to go back to our hotel and end the night in the most mutually pleasing ways we can think of.
"They're definitely going to work.""I give it two years." I agreed while we walked out of there, and laughed at the look on Sam's face. "I mean, I give it two years until they have their own angrier version of Julia ( ... )
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Huh?
"I mean, I give it two years until they have their own angrier version of Julia."
Oh. I laughed and nodded. "Yeah, I don't doubt it." At all. And it'll be funny as hell. But now that I'm thinking about it, it'll probably be funnier for me. Gina will be calling Carly to bitch to her the second she finds out she's pregnant.
So yeah, it won't be as fun for Carly as it will be for me, but at least one of us will be getting some fun out of it.
"Its inevitable."
"What's really going to frighten the living hell out of me is if they have a boy." I laughed, and then actually thought about what I was saying, and stopped laughing. That's... Not funny. That's not funny at all.
I think I just scared the living hell out of myself.
"Nevermind." I went looking for the limo, and nodded to the driver. "Hey. Can you take us back to the hotel?"
"Sure thing sir.""Thanks." I moved before he could get the door, and got it myself. "I got it." I smiled to him, and the smile he gave me back made me think I should get in the ( ... )
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....
That is utterly terrifying. I just...why would he bring that up? I don't want to think about that. We had a good day. We shouldn't be thinking about that. The world feels crazy when I think about that, and I don't like feeling like this!
"Nevermind."
Thank you.
We're not going to get into all of the reasons why that one is wrong. We just have to know that it is, and hope for a girl. Gina and Dylan having a girl would really be the best thing for all of us, I swear.
"Hey. Can you take us back to the hotel?"
"Sure thing sir."
"Thanks."
"I got it."I should have given Sam lessons on limo etiquette before I let him get within fifty feet of one of these things. He's not supposed to do that. And the driving isn't going to like him doing that because he's used to it being his job. Sam is pretty much getting in the way of something he knows he's expected to do. It has to be a little frustrating for him, and the look just proves it ( ... )
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"Yeah."
And soon, we'll be back in Los Angeles, and Carly can get upset because we missed Julia in her costume even though there's going to be pictures.
And Arianna can swear up and down that they didn't watch Nightmare Before Christmas while humming 'Kindap Mr. Sandy Claws' under her breath.
And everything'll be back to normal. Or whatever the hell passes for normal in our lives.
"I'm glad we came.""Me too." It was a good trip. I like New York. I'm not sure if it's more or less hellish than Los Angeles, but I like it. I think I'm just densensitized to how cities are. You live in one that's big enough for long enough, you can take just about any of them ( ... )
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"No." I shook my head. "I'd tell you if I was."
"Just checking."
"I know." I smiled and gave Sam a kiss to let him see it was okay.
I don't mind him asking. With all the 'trying' we've been doing the past few days, I think its possible that I could be pregnant. But still, a few days are just that. A few. It would probably take me a little longer than that to notice if something was different with my body, just because that didn't really change me overnight with Julia either. It took me a while to realize what was happening. And even though I'd recognize the symptons this time, I don't think they'd start happening immediately.
I don't know. We'll find out sooner or later, but nothing has happened yet as far as I can tell.
When I notice something, Sam will be the first one to know. He shouldn't have any doubts on that one.
"Think we should call when we get back? See how they're doing?""Dan was going to email me today with some pictures of Julia. If we don't get anything ( ... )
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