So looking at the recent developments with my mother's psyche has brought to light something that I never really thought that deeply about... ok really I try to never think -too- deeply, but I inevitably do... I think that's like a girl thing. Thinking means deepening the little thought-wrinkle in my forehead, which I'm striving to keep to a ( Read more... )

You know, at some point... I really need to consider the concept of actually using my IQ... sure, it's not the highest, it could be better, and I'm not that prone to mentioning it... but my former belief that nothing in life beyond like personal safety really ever needed my full nerdiness has suddenly become rather... dated. I mean in highschool ( Read more... )

You know those weird great moments when you look in a mirror and you're for once like "I honestly don't want to be any different than I am right now"? I think sometimes people dont just open themselves up to those moments. Really, they can be more than that I'm sure, maybe for a time longer than a moment, but there's no romantic term for ( Read more... )

I really dislike how my little heart likes to kinda waver back and forth between things.... I mean more than just minor decisions like who to vote for to somewhat big decisions about what to wear to like major ones about what the hell to think of Carl. Things go from like the picture of total, sweet, storybook romance to me thinking 'ok, gotta ( Read more... )

I hate dating. Honestly, at this point arranged marriage is sounding good. Becoming a nun might be fun too, Jesus seems like he'd be nice. I bet he's a great listener. Prolly knows some really great resturants ( Read more... )

Man I love that song, even if it is the same 10 lines sung over and over again with increasingly hairband guitar. I like that I know all the words maybe hehe ( Read more... )

I have absolutely no desire to go home. None whatsoever. Basically I think if it were entirely possible to cling to the life that's budding for me here, I might. I mean... I do want to go back to chicago... I'd like to see my friends there, to see Patrick, and visit everyone... but... really, besides seeing my puppy, thats just about the only ( Read more... )

it's the strangst thing but i've never met mark's mother. i talked to her on the phone once when my mom and mark were out of town and she was at the house... but i'd never actually gotten to meet her. well... then she died last thursday and suddenly she became a huge part of my life ( Read more... )

Wait, Billy's still alive right? Right ( Read more... )

I'm so sleepy *clap clap clap clapclap*

O so sleepy *clap clap clap clapclap*

*konks out*