Behavior Modification

Sep 20, 2006 12:10

So, many of you on my friends list know that I have been battling depression for a really long time. And I've approached the battle like a general, waging war against it. It's a non-traditional kind of war to be sure, but I have done research, taken drugs of many varieties and flavors, tried every traditional and non-traditional approach there is ( Read more... )

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amp23 September 20 2006, 18:52:52 UTC
whatever happens, and however bad you slide,
beating yourself up never helps anything.
remember that.

that and one day of listening to your body's limitations does not undo 3-4 months of progress.

i've just been through 6 months of backsliding from an avalanche of life. i'm not where i want to be, not even anywhere close to where i was just a short year ago. but the beauty of the progress is i'm beginning to know my formula. i know what i need to do to get where i need to be, and while i'll get told to sit down and shut up by my body from time to time (and i don't like idleness unless it's idleness at my own whim), i know things will improve again when i and my body can cooperate toward that goal (the goal being improvement - growth and development over any concrete metrics.).

and you can do it too :)

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gremlingirl September 20 2006, 19:07:51 UTC
I don't say this enough, but reading your journal entries really inspires me, and has for the last year and a half. I feel that in many ways, we are both looking at varying aspects of life and how they can be improved for ourselves, and so much of that means listening to our bodies, hearts and souls for guidance. I think you understand, like I do, how frustrating it can be when it seems like they aren't working together, or when the body is the piece that can't keep up with the mind and the goals. I understand what you mean by formula. And I do have a good sense of what mine is, and how I tweak aspects of it for better performance. But sometimes I get lost in it all. A lot of times I get lost in it all.

It's nice to be able to write it all down though, so it stops swirling through my brain incessantly, and then on top of it, to have such supportive comments about progress, and journey, and effort. I truly appreciate your feedback. Thank you.

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amp23 September 20 2006, 19:11:43 UTC
well i'm glad my limited graspings and babblings have helped :) i see a lot of commonality between us, and like to think that if we lived in the same neighborhood we'd be good friends and neighbors.

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gremlingirl September 20 2006, 20:18:43 UTC
Sounds about right to me.

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toadwart September 20 2006, 19:02:28 UTC
I just want you to know that I am sooooooooooooo very proud of you!!!

I know you can slide and I know how frustrating it can be (Even when you do everything right and still slide)

But I know you can do it!!!!!!!

now I just have to convince myelf I can do it;)

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gremlingirl September 20 2006, 19:08:50 UTC
I believe in you. You believe in me. What more can life offer?

I love you to bits.

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toadwart September 20 2006, 19:15:46 UTC
ooooh!

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gremlingirl September 21 2006, 16:32:42 UTC
yeah. Thanks for the words of support. It gets hard to fall down when you feel like you've been making decent progress. It's like you want to shake your fist at the sky for awhile. But I am back at work today, so things feel like they are moving in the right direction again.

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razl September 21 2006, 16:02:20 UTC
I am soo proud of you for your progress in the past few months... :) I am always here for you... you can e-mail or IM me anytime. We could even (gasp!) get together sometime and hang out... ;P don't beat yourself up EVER! I do it a lot, and will probably be working on that for the rest of my life... :) But you know what... I am one of the luckiest people around... because I have friends like you! You have soo many good things going on ... you have to stop and look around once in a while and appreciate what you do have... vs. what you don't.

*SMILE!!!* :)

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gremlingirl September 21 2006, 16:28:08 UTC
Thank you thank you! It is so nice to have my own little cheerleading squad! We should see if we can get together for coffee sometime soon. I'd like to catch up.

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razl September 22 2006, 17:14:29 UTC
let me know a time frame and certain days you are available, and then we can work something out k. :)

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