Yesterday was fucking bizarre. In terms of the bizarre goings on in my life, yesterday ranked at about a 9 ( Read more... )

It's 11PM. Have I mentioned I have been sleeping like shit lately? Because I have ( Read more... )

I made it!

Did you?

So, many of you on my friends list know that I have been battling depression for a really long time. And I've approached the battle like a general, waging war against it. It's a non-traditional kind of war to be sure, but I have done research, taken drugs of many varieties and flavors, tried every traditional and non-traditional approach there is ( Read more... )

I've been obsessively playing with these worry beads that Laura got me from Greece a few years back. They are helping siphoning off of the anxiety that seems to be coursing through my body and spirit today. I can feel my nerves, completely on edge, and not really sure why ( Read more... )

living in a constant state of panic

Perhaps because I keep chewing everyone's ear off about this, and I am sure they are sick of hearing it by now, but MONEY = ARGH PAIN, MY EYE ( Read more... )

Drinking, Everclear, and the Distillers.
Have I come to any great conclusions?
No.
Have I been drinking water to mitigate the hangover?
Yes.
Am I keeping close tabs on my behaviour?
Yes.
Do I think this will ultimately help matters?
No.
Am I envisioning gobs of gore?
Not anymore.
Do I want more?
Absolutely.

I want a pony. Made of candy.

That's really the only thing that will "make it all better."

*sigh*

Busy busy morning ( Read more... )