I'm aimlessly pacing around Josh's living room, trying to figure out what to say in my next cover letter. His extra-conservative parents (the kind who get upset if you wear anything above the knee) have put up a sign by the door: Knock and it shall be opened unto you. Well, considering this is probably my 28th job application, I'm guessing you have ( Read more... )

Song lyrics from a very serious, adult source. Thank you, Barbie ( Read more... )

Well kids, I know it's been a while ( Read more... )

I like the phrase "he cleans up nice" because it suggests that, 1. he looks good dressed up, and 2. he was previously dirty.

I'm trying to find space away from the 47-odd emo kids running around the apartment. I keep telling myself that this summer is going to be promising, that I should enjoy it, and not fast forward to the next time I'll have a place that is my own, in a new country. It's not that I won't miss certain people, I just want to live in a place that doesn't ( Read more... )

I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it

I can't explain this. Where is the intensity I crave?

"No really, 'dipping my balls' doesn't mean what you might think. Except when it does."

"Would you like the big vat or the even bigger vat?"

Haha. I missed guys. Also, communication in song lyric form is NEVER a bad idea.

I feel, well, lost a little. And kind of somewhere in limbo between a person who is lovable and a person you can really love. Maybe it has something to do with looking at those pictures. It's hard to see how happy they look, and to know that I was a perfectly acceptable casualty in getting that way. It's not that I'm sad about it anymore, really, ( Read more... )

I'm trying really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. To focus on the goal beyond this rainy day and all these bills and complications. I'm trying to stay new, optimistic, quixotic, which is so, SO hard in this world that encourages you to pursue happiness like its a carrot on a string and you're Tantalus, or something. I'm not just ( Read more... )

I just had a moment of clarity. I'm really proud of the person I am.