omg so much pain it's not even funny. I can't even walk from my recliner in the living room to the kitchen without gasping for air. so much shaking and tremors with my hands it takes me forever to type anything anymore. it just took me 6 times to type the word "hands" there and that was on my computer keyboard, not my phone. couldn't sleep last ( Read more... )

well wouldn't ya know it, the day after I posted that last entry and I seemed to notice some improvement in the darkness under my eyes after all, even in the bathroom light. so I guess I'll keep doing it a little longer, probably just goes slower for me because I have so much more than most people have. boy the last few days for me have been so ( Read more... )

well I wasn't gonna drag this subject out for a 3rd entry, but there's really nothing else to talk about after 17 days. I still can't tell if there's any difference under my eyes. just like in the last entry, it kinda looks different outside in the light but in my bathroom still no change at all. so I'm guessing that now that it's been about 6 ( Read more... )

well, it's been like 3-4 weeks now of using the lemon juice to try to get rid of the darkness under my eyes. I don't know how long it takes for it to work because the articles didn't say, they just said you COULD see results in as little as a week, but they didn't say what was normal. so I don't know if it's still too early to expect anything yet, ( Read more... )

I read a few articles last week that mentioned that lemon juice can help get rid of the darkness under your eyes, because it actually bleaches your skin, so I thought I'd try that. it says to dab it on with a cottonball and leave it on for 20 minutes then rinse it off. but after 1 day of doing it that way, I thought since my case is sooooo much ( Read more... )

I've always wondered what I did in life to have it come to where it is now with me basically wishing I was dead but being too scared to do anything about it. karma, or the golden rule, or whatever jewish people call it.. what did I do to someone or something? I don't believe in previous lives or next lives so it must have been something in the time ( Read more... )

lately I discovered something else, this time it turns out to be something I don’t care for so much anymore.. I now hate anytime someone knocks on a door (or anything) on a TV show or movie. and here’s the reason, and it sucks. sometime a few years ago here in my journal, I made an entry about how I used to live in an apartment where you could ( Read more... )

I found this one thing out back around november when I was watching a TV show. I found something that actually still makes me smile and happy. I'll just come right out and say it, even though it sounds weird.. I like balloons with faces on them. I was watching the cartoon Bob's Burgers, and at the end of the episode over the credits, there were 2 ( Read more... )

listening to the new Depeche Mode album right now. bad just like I expected, but not as bad as the last one where they tried to be a rock band. I don't hear much guitar this time around, it sounds like it's mostly keyboards, which is nice, but they just don't have the catchiness of their pre-Ultra stuff. I guess Martin just doesn't have the ( Read more... )

yep, 3rd time in a row. lost a job after working for one day. I'm not even going to dwell on why it happened or get all pissed off about it here. just going to deliver the news and have that be the end of it.