*Deceptions at Night ( Read more... )

Today, my sister took off 8 inches of my hair. yep. it's a little shorter than the bottom of my breasts. I'm kinda regretting it, haha. and then. if my hair acts nice, I might end up getting it around shoulder length in about a month. it's still wet, so let's hope it looks good. people will kill me now for cutting off so much hair. it was to my ( Read more... )

cabaret has been going pretty well. I dance in my underwear like I've done it for years! lol. and I have someone who has a crush on me, who I have one on him too. it's very exciting.

I don't feel well. I feel a little sick to my stomach. And I'm getting depressed somewhat, b/c I'm starting to miss someone who could care less.

So I'm back to being depressed again. It's so exciting too. I've been trying not to let myself fall into it's trap, but I have. It's been so hard not to when everyone you know is letting you know they think you're a complete failure and burden. You know how many people say things like, if I wasn't born, everyone else would be so much happier. I'm ( Read more... )

This was at 3:08am on Sunday, April 3, 2005. I posted it on my myspace, but didn't know I didn't put it here. So here it is ( Read more... )

The other day at Sizzler, this little girl (toddler age) told me I was pretty. It was so cute, I was like, awwww, thank you. There were 4 people in the group, including her. It was the dad, mom, older sis, like, maybe 9 or so, and then her. Her dad was holding her up in his arms. When I was done taking their order and was like, ok, alex will take ( Read more... )

SO live journal didn't wanna sign me in last night, so I just posted it on myspace, so I could post it later on here. So now it's working, yay. The journal ( Read more... )

Well, today has been freakin rock awesome. I mean, I started out really slow this morning, really tired and kind of sick, but as I got going at work, I really got goin and takin orders and doing really well. One of the people I met today, who I haven't met before, was asking me like, how long have I been working here. And I was like, oh, this is my ( Read more... )

I hate being a fool. He led me on. I don't care what he says and how he tries to explain it, b/c he's been indecisive the whole relationship. Or more like "relationship." I was hoping he did want me to be his g/f, and he made me believe he did want me to be, and now he...yadda yadda. I don't feel like talking about it. Usually I get depressed over ( Read more... )