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HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYE

Well I discovered that from web sites, I can see that Raye is online, yet I don't see her online on my freinds list in my yahoo. Maybe she's just inviasble to me, but I think she's blocked me. I'm really not sure why. I thought that we were going to be freinds, we even said so the last time we really talked. I didn't even know that she could still ( Read more... )

I havn't been getting to sleep very easily at all, my feet hurt, but I can probably chalk that up to my new shoe that aren't breacking in all that easilyI've been almost compleled to watch the weather channel alot of the last hours before I go to bed, not really sure why, and it's sort of hard to tel that the hours go by, just because they don't ( Read more... )

questions keep on being asked in my mind, and to most all I can say, to myself, is that I don't know. Questions like will I ever find someone who loves me as much as I love them? After all that has happened between me and Raye, would I truly be happy if she were to be "mine" again? Would she? When will I stop feeling the whole in my heart and life ( Read more... )

for everyone who didn't know, my family came to visit me for a wekk starting last friday, and I took some time off of work while they were here. For the most part we didn't do much besides hang out at my place, but durring that time I realized some things that I've been maybe supresing or at least not thinking about much. The largest realaztion, ( Read more... )

well I sent my inner meditating monk off to figure out some stuff about how I really feel about Rach, and when I checked back with him, he gave me the urge to actually start school as I've talked about before in here. Mostly I havn't started due to money issues, however, my credit card just raise my limit by not unsubstantial amount and I can now ( Read more... )

I know it's been awhile since I had an update and I really need to do one now. Be forewarned all ye who read this that this will be long. The area of my life that I'm going to start in, the area that title comes from s my love life such as it is. As I've stated before I have been dating Rachael, well everything was going smoothly up until this ( Read more... )

well it might be a good idea to updated this. Recently, I've been chatting online with Rachael, someone who makes me happy. We meet in person Tuesday. It was very good, we watch a couple of her movies (she collects them), and ate, and got used to being around each other. here's some info and how I found her, for everyone who's curious about her Read more... )