Comments | gothika_erotika: And I Suppose You Care, Because?

gothika_erotika

And I Suppose You Care, Because?

Feb 10, 2005 22:57

It seems like almost everytime I post in my LJ, it's because I'm depressed or enraged. I guess the reason is because this journal is the only one I feel comfortable with writing my negative feelings in. The people who read this, aren't likely to go out and blab my feelings to the world, or claim I'm a psychotic, anorexic bitch ( Read more... )

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spooky_ February 11 2005, 08:26:03 UTC

You don't sound Grotesque to me.. you may not want to hear this, but it all sounds "normal" to me..

Well, either that, or just similar to myself at 18.
And I mean most of it. I'm not writing this to pretend i understand exactly where you're coming from, but I just wanted to say that what you've described that you're going through is fixable, and anything but hopeless.. It just comes down to standing up to the negative thoughts in your own head, and realising that you deserve better than to feel this way.

I'd also suggest starting an account of your own and transferring your money over so your Parents don't have that kind of control / power over you, and perhaps an apartment of your own?
I did that, and even though I could only afford a shitty little place at the age of 17, it still made a world of difference ( ... )

gothika_erotika February 11 2005, 21:40:19 UTC

I don't know if I could make it on my own. Not right now... I suppose maybe after I have my license, and am making more money than $5.15 an hour.

Maybe it will get better when my best friend moves in with me. It'll be easier to talk to someone. Thanks for taking the time to reply.

I know things aren't that bad, I just, get restless. Desperate emotions call for desperate rantings. ♥

spooky_ February 12 2005, 00:03:58 UTC

No worries.. Yeah, having a housemate makes it easier in lots of ways, so that sounds like a good idea.
Hope things get better for you soon, sweety.
=)

detra February 11 2005, 16:24:52 UTC

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gothika_erotika February 11 2005, 21:41:07 UTC

Of course it won't, but sometimes it's hard to make it through, even knowing it won't be. ♥♥

Thank you for caring. You're utterly amazing.

darkenedlight99 February 11 2005, 21:57:11 UTC

hey amanda, i know just how you feel. My mom was the same way when she found my diet pills. but i just stoped takeing them...

Guys are ahhhh! They do the same to me, either they want me in bed or I am just not good enough. take care hun:) things will turn around they always do:)

gothika_erotika February 12 2005, 02:03:49 UTC

I don't know why parents associate diet pills with anorexia. Oh well. It's been worse with the whole guy thing since I've started working at Hot Topic. That's probably the only bad thing about working there.

blackcellardoor February 11 2005, 23:51:09 UTC

i hardly say anything when i'm with you. if i do, it's usually short.

why would no one want to listen to you? grr. people need to grow up.

gothika_erotika February 12 2005, 02:02:56 UTC

It wasn't you I meant... It's the people who have been choosing to talk to me lately. I wish it were you I talked to more... ♥

People do need to grow up.