I have a new livejournal. I don't want to look at this one anymore.

Thelightswewere

add me if you want, I guess.

When no one is around, love will always love you.

I try to be fun and silly and energetic and optimistic and all of that fucking bullshit to keep from being depressed. At the end of the day, I feel it, if only for a second. I don't want to feel it for even a second ( Read more... )

 I am going to hate myself for as long as things are weird between us.

I will be okay once I root out everything that is holding me back.
I'm in the process.

 

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I hate not being understood. In my experience, it makes every relationship a failure. I feel like I always see potential in complete idiots. Opposites attract but seeing eye to eye on the important things is an essential in being content.

The most important question in all of this is, what do I want? Do I want to be content or do I want to work for ( Read more... )

sunburned due to traffic ( Read more... )

My weekend was great. Friday went really well. A lot of people showed up. Did keg stands, watched humanzee, listened to music, and what not. Tay and Emily bought me this really cute jacket and necklace, along with a gift certificate for barns and noble's. My mom got me roses and a bunch of other people bought me candy. On saturday morning Loren ( Read more... )

Tonight I had another "dream". It felt like fucking reality. I woke up at four o'clock racing to my light switch for what I thought was the millionth time tonight. I couldn't believe I finally broke it. This was not like the ones before. Once I noticed my freedom, I grabbed a pillow and rushed to the couch, crying hysterically. I felt like a ( Read more... )