i am taking a break with jamie i love her to death but i just need time to deal with bullshit im living with i will run back to and i will realize that i was dumb for leaving her in the first place but i feel this is somthing that has to be down for me to feel better about myself and feel better about our relationship i miss her already but i know ( Read more... )

i really dont know what i want and yeah this is fucking gay FUck i wish i could give someone my brass knuckles and just tell them to unleash on my face to put me out of my misery i hate life i suck at it but i wont quit im no quitter im just a loser

with more then 75% of the skum removed from my life i can finally live and what makes me even happier is Jamie<33 is coming to my home tonight yay yay i can not wait she will be here soon she has quite a drive but she knows i will pay her back in kindness and love but i do that all the time so yeah uhmm what else is new i watched match stick men ( Read more... )

this is probably my last entry for a while i am leaving my home i dont know where im goin or if and when i will be back i have my stuff pack my shit is together im sick of this sibling rivalry and to be the most mature and the smartest i decided i will leave its not what family wants but life if never fair every poker player gets dealt a shit hand ( Read more... )

as we all know lots of shit has been gone done im now heart struck with jamie and well it is all it can be no more no less just perfect in other new some kids need to grow im not one to talk shit but seriously just go die be buried in the philth you live in as to other people i will list my friends jon aet the band vince dustin adam others and ( Read more... )

well last night sonsisted of a long talk with heather i just wish stuff was better and we were a lil bit closer but i had a wonderful time on the phone and while i was on my phone i got to thinkin why the fuck am i carrying around my phone i have a hands free thing so i raced up to my room and got it well it made talking much easier and its alot ( Read more... )

wow i have to say that was one of the most influencing and touching movies i have ever seen my views upon religion still stand but that movies makes you think and from reading the bible before some of what the movie betrays is far fetched but other then that it is correct the highlight of the whole night was being with margo i dont think it could ( Read more... )

damn b yes things couldnt be better right now i am going to the movies with margo tonight i can not wait to be with her again she is such an awesome girl<33333 well ill just shut my mouf dont wanna ruin anything or jinx that shizzit uhmm so on my www.xanga.com/awishforwingsthatwork site i have cool music and yeha if i could of put boyz in da hood ( Read more... )

yay as days go on things look up i am spending the night with margo tomorrow i can not wait we are going to see that jesus movie and since its all in subtitles im going to make her read it to me haha probably not though i can read i probably wont be going to any shows for the next two weeks since there are none worth going to and today i was woken ( Read more... )

i have realized in this 2 day sobbing period being down will get me nowhere i need to suck it up and go out and do whats right not hold back feelings not be affraid like i have in the past i am going to put forth my efforts in job searching and im going to open up about my feelings i have got to say i am feeling better though not so drug out and ( Read more... )