I don't know if it's just me or not... but why does everyone have to cockblock me on the hot ones.. why don't they do this shit when I'm drunk and just wanting to get my dick wet? wtf, bad friends..

I'm tired of this... can I just shoot myself now and get it done with?

after this weekend I've realized a few things... I'm still not completely over her... my life is kinda pointless.. and I really do think I'm going in the wrong direction for money..

bah.. can I just hit the reset button on life?

so, grandma died. sucks, but it's about time... now that desire to leave California strikes again.. what to do.. what to do.. in other news I miss having someone to talk to.

2 months 16 days left...

ok, so I was talking to a friend of mine about bad sexual encounters today... and it's made me think... I haven't had anyone get me off since the ex-wife.. am I just destined for horrible sex?

again the piece of paper ruins it.. ofcourse.. why would I be wanted or desired with that still being a legal thing... BIG FUCKING DEAL. it's a still in effect...... fuck it why bother anymore I'm used to being alone might as well continue it

FUCK

so, I've been looking into getting a shrink to get some help. Hopefully I'll follow through and get one. I need one.

That is all.

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My grip on reality is gone. every day I wake up thinking I'm somewhere else, sometimes that I am someone else. the dreams are beginning to slip into my waking reality. I was driving today and felt and saw a hand dart in front of my face this afternoon while I was driving to the bank. I nearly swerved off the road. my current state has left me in ( Read more... )