I hung out with some old friends, it was nice but at the same time it made me remember the times where i was almost happy and then lost that happiness and it really depressed me. you know sometimes i just can't breathe. i just think over and over when i could have someone that would make me happy. If i found that person that could make me smile i ( Read more... )

The night began at a christmas party, it was a nice party. Many friends and familiar faces, was very very relaxing. into the early hours of the night (1 am ish) i had begun my adventure, my story, my film. a miraculous expirience it was indeed. it began in one room with 3 very close to heart friends and it was an expirience. the pictures on the ( Read more... )

i hate this season, no not because im a jew, just because

can't wait till jan 2 that leaves me 364 days until the worst day of the year.

Your poems are a sweet scent ( Read more... )

i was gonna write something about missing being lonely but i couldn't figure out the words to use so

fuck it.

mad people just left my house. a lot of booze. a lot of people getting sick. out of control. oh yeah so i tripped for the first time the other day. i have to say it was an experience beyond experience. lets begin; after about 25 minutes the lights in my room started moving. i was focused on my friend ili and the backround behind him was changing. ( Read more... )

Yo world. I'm in brooklyn right now at a friends house just chillin. Yesterday Val and people came by and we got really cooked it was really cool. So yeah. i got a show coming up. im really doing too much shit i got work school and more work. i dont like being a professional it sucks. i wanna be a kid again, be like five without any worries or ( Read more... )

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So it's November now, a lot has happened this month. Since the end of October's cold hearted rejection i've been binging. First it was liquor, which ended when i drank myself unconsious in front of my family. Now its marijuana, for the past 2 weeks its been everyday smoke after smoke after smoke. and i dont mind it makes me happy and i like being ( Read more... )