I don't really understand myself, and I know it's harder for you to understand me. I never really understood why you would try to put up with my actions. It's sort of refreshing though, to know that there is someone who cares enough to try so hard. It sort of breaks my heart because I know I won't ever fall in love with you. But it's enough ( Read more... )

I just pretend that it doesn't bother me but it does.
Nobody thinks farther into the situation.
Why should they? It's not like I give them reason too.
I'm pretty good at faking it.
I don't want to be vulnerable.
Nobody thinks he's worth my unhappiness anyways.
And he isn't.
But I can't help but feel I let him down in some way.

As we get older I become more aware of how fragile life really is. The only death I've ever experienced was my great uncle when I was 5, like I actually understood the concept of death? It's scary to think that this is just the beginning. It is true that bad things happen to good people. I don't want to grow up if these are the so-called " ( Read more... )

Be a good older brother.
Or atleast try.
It means alot more then you would ever know.

I hate how I sound on here.

Maybe I sound like that everyday?

I'm so sick right now.

My car hates me every other day

My grades suck

and everyday's a routine boreeee.

change that. (=

Whenever my mouth is open,
stupid things come out.

So I haven't written in this thing in a long time, but I felt that I should bring it back ( Read more... )

Love, LIfe, and Livejournal are complete shams.

8-9 days ago I had some major family problems.
They're still f'king everything up.

I hate when my friends hurt,
cause I frkn hurt
and it makes me feel so helpless !
UGH

Livejournals a frkn ghey piece of shit that I rly can't write anything into !

Maybe if I search really hard...maybe I'll find it again.
Maybe if I tried a tad bit harder, I wouldn't feel so numb.
I haven't felt anything in a such a long time...
My emotions sort of seep into eachother now.
...but maybe that's just normal.

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