So this Zen thing has been on my mind a lot, I guess, and in fractured thoughts, which has made it hard to write about. It seems obvious that after a long period of living a fast-paced, highly scheduled, over committed lifestyle for several years, that you'd burn out or at least want to slow down for a bit. It made sense to choose this lifestyle as
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I really enjoyed reading it, and I remembered what you said to me once about liking the bits of my writing that were the most honest, and how tricky it is to be "honest" about something that's made up, but how engaging it is when it IS honest.
Also, funny with the "we could never have met at any point before we met": It's the same with me, because 5 years before I met my husband, his first wife was still alive, and 2 years after that, his daughter was an angry 13-year old and would have broken us up if we'd tried to be together.
But I still have such statements in the diary of my sixteen-year-old self, like, "I wonder where my future husband is right now?"
Hahahaha, yeah. Don't think about it ;)
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a man 8 and a half years younger than me, not Jewish and in the Defence Force. Three aspects that I never considered would be right for me
That's something I'm debating in my own head at the moment. 8 years younger (!!! why does that sound so much?, different religion, totally different life path. And yet, does that matter? I am loving hearing that for you, those things that you think are so important actually aren't.
I think it's also a benefit of growing older, growing wiser, learning through heartbreaks and changes. We learn to be zen. To not try so hard, to just let things be, and sometimes, as you are doing, take that next important step and breathe.
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It doesn't matter when it's the right person. And it's the right person when none of that stuff matters. Cryptic, eh? Yet it took me this long and being with this person to find that out!
I think eventually you have to be zen because it's too wearying to sustain the other for that long.
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