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ginkage

Bittersweet Happiness

Dec 08, 2012 00:37

So. I know it's been a long, long time since I wrote anything on any of my journals. I got sucked into the morass of Facebook along with so many other things. School is going well and I'm in my final term. Hopefully that means thst the hell of a job I've been stuck in will only be a factor fir anither month or two ( Read more... )

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warriorinside December 8 2012, 11:53:14 UTC

I'm thinking I might know who you're talking about, but I'm not sure enough that I'm right to say a damn thing for sure :)

*hugs* I know that you along with a lot of other people turned their backs on me when I left a certain group of people, but I still consider you a friend, whatever you might think :) You're still a wonderful, beautiful, and special person, and if she's too wrapped up in herself to see that ... well, that's her problem. Your world has to be the one of your choosing - hanging on the edge of someone else's world isn't a life.

ginkage December 8 2012, 18:23:19 UTC

Thank you. Honestly, that does mean a lot. I cherish friends and you are one of the people I've known the longest in my life. :)

I've come to realize that in the past thirteen years I've given up a lot of things for this person because, for most of that time, I wssn't strong enough in myself to see the changes I need to make.

I find I'm getting stronger now, making the changes that count for me. It's hard, though, to remove all the little hooks that have stretched things between us. Every time I pull another one out, the bits that were stretched snap back like a broken rubber band. I may not get them all out until after I'm done with school simply because I just don't have the time to patch all of the wounds with everything else I have to do.

warriorinside December 9 2012, 00:26:03 UTC

Good! It's a process and takes time to do, but it's so worth it. It's amazing how freeing that activity is. I wish you luck :) Let me know if you want to catch up sometime.

yup.... myth024 January 26 2013, 01:18:26 UTC

now you know how I felt...
I'm in a better place now and I may have been upset but it was never at you. The friendship we had may have become thin or non-existant but I'm up for mending fences.

Re: yup.... ginkage January 26 2013, 01:30:57 UTC

When the house fell apart, I think we were all trapped in our own headspaces. I think I needed the kick in the pants to, well, move outside of myself and interact with the world in a way I hadn't felt I had the strength to.

I am very glad you are in a better place now. When a lot of this started... I really did think about contacting you. I admit I never had because, frankly, it all slipped my mind with all that's been going on in my life.

I'm certainly up for mending fences. I do think I know how you felt, now. I haven't fully severed the ties that have bound me... but I'm snapping the last of them when I'm done with school. It's been painful... especially this month.