I'm not okay, I promise

[ginevieve]

Yeah, so Tim and I are "on hiatus."

His choice. My fault.

So me and my fucking issues and complexes ruined another relationship. Oh shock. I fucking hate myself on days like this.

You know, I don't think I even really want to talk about it.

Sorry for dumping this on you guys.

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[syran]

Want me to push him into a locker? Because you know I will.

I'm sure it isn't all your fault, no matter what you say. Because I've known you longer than we've been alive, and I say so. I know you love and care about him, and whatever issue may have arisen, I feel like he should be able to get through it because of that.

You haven't called in forever, and I miss you. I'm really really poor, but we should hang out soon. And maybe I will scrape up some cash in time for your birthday ♥

[ginevieve]

♥♥♥

You're right, love, it's not all my fault, but there's a lot of things I need to fix that I screwed up. (I've been thinking about it a lot, as I'm sure you guessed I would.) Basically, it all boils down to me being unhappy, and I figured out what I need to do to fix it, so hopefully it won't take long to get me back to good.

I might need you though; one of my problems is I'm secluding myself to the house and not spending time with my friends. So you should call me and start dragging me out more often. :)

I miss you too, babe. I thought about calling you this weekend, but my sister is supposed to be home, so she and mom are kidnapping me away to Defi. But next weekend starts my week-long factory shut down, so I am all yours, any time you want me next week.

And don't worry about being poor; I got that promotion at work, and the nice payrise, so I should have plenty of cash soon.

And I bought a truck (omgwtf)! So I have to come pick you up in my ginormous yellow truck soon.

[thethirdbar]

And I bought a truck (omgwtf)! So I have to come pick you up in my ginormous yellow truck soon.

Really, completely irrelevant, but why are you so cool?

[ginevieve]

:)

Probably to counter-act all the incredibly uncool things I do on a regular basis.

♥

[she_who_dares]

Oh, honey, I'm so sorry to hear that. Don't feel like you have to talk about it if you don't want to yet. Do what you have to, just know that we're all here to hear you out if ever you do need to vent. I hope you can sort things out soon, whatever is for the best. *hugs*

[ginevieve]

*hugs* Thank you, darling. I am, very slowly, getting things sorted and "back to good," so to speak. I just... I'm still a little lost as to how it got this far gone.

We've sorted things out, more or less, and with any luck, it'll just be a short hiatus, until I get a few things in my life settled.

[she_who_dares]

It's good to hear that you're getting your head together again, I'm sure that with a little time to think things over and organise your thoughts, you'll be ready to end this hiatus. I guess sometimes we all need to have time to ourselves to think about our own issues, whatever they may be, and life is usually the better for it. I'll keep everything crossed for you, sweetie.

[thethirdbar]

oh, god, gin. i'm sorry. are you okay? well, not, probably, but you know what i mean. *hugs hard* email me if you want to talk or something, or just rant or whatever?

love you. ♥

[ginevieve]

*clings to*

Still not okay, but getting better. I may email you with the whole story, just to get another opinion on whether not I'm handling things right.

♥ you, darling.

[thethirdbar]

*kisses* It's up to you, just so long as you know I'm here if you want to talk to anyone or anything. :x

[polar_star]

Oh, sweetie *hugs*

I'm so sorry. Sometimes things just happen because they were meant to. Don't ever blame yourself, and certainly don't hate yourself. You're special, and all of us know that.

[ginevieve]

Thank you so much, sweetheart. I think the self-hatred has passed finally now that I'm getting things sorted out.

I read your recap of your adventures in Cali; will comment a bit later. (Am meeting a friend for lunch.)

*hugs so tight* ♥