It has been a mixed bag for me really, not too bad but certainly not good. The same two fucking dreams/nightmares have returned. Will I ever be free of them? Probably not.

I feel like I am so far behind where I need to be. People stupider than I have reached their potential while I have either flailed away or given up. I should be that ( Read more... )

It seems to me like this is one of those times where I should not do too much of anything or I wind up pissing everyone off. Good. Great. Whatever. It is like nothing is getting done but it should be but if I try too much it goes to hell.

I came across a pair of requests on a postcard exchange, an offer I had not gotten around to doing. ( Read more... )

Reality has set in. I know why those in nursing homes scream “No” repeatedly until they have to be sedated. They know the end is coming and they want someone to do something about it. They want to break free of their decaying bodies and do things they used to be able to do, things they loved to do, things they wanted to do if only they had ( Read more... )

Anyone ever feel that they need to be doing something important but don't know what it is? Or perhaps one feels like their skin is not their own and deep down their need to be who they really are?

Social media seems to be dying. What is the next big thing? I want in on the ground-floor. Do I want to be hounded by psychotics from grade ( Read more... )

Not much going on here or anyplace, Facebook nothing, email crickets, snail mail … I now check twice a month. Where is everybody? Hello?

Ok so I reconsidered my pictures and decided to try to … revamp them. It is a dirty word in the photo business, removing the dots in photoshop. Oh well. The pristine images I may enter in a contest just ( Read more... )

All the images I took on my trip have dots on them, same location, everytime. This has been a problem before but never this bad. It is not the lens as I cleaned that too many times to count. I give up. I guess I was not meant to take good pictures, show the world something new, or basically be somewhat normal.

I sent out a postcard to a ( Read more... )

Why is everything going on this weekend? There are several things I want to participate in and yet I can only do three. Friday and Saturday I am in two places. Sunday is open to either two history events or a baseball shindig. Now I have received some invite to a pancake kickoff on Saturday. I can only guess the next weekend I have planned will be ( Read more... )

Bad day gets worse. No matter how hard I try I just cannot break out of this funk I am in. I want to go left and I end up going right. Up is down and vice versa. I am not sure if it is a Philadelphia or not. Maybe it is some other frame of mind.

I hear that if your relay your feelings in writing or blogging you can find some sort of ( Read more... )

I have tried for over one hour to make corrections to my application for financial aid. I have made no progress. Their website is a piece of shit. I mean a piece of fucking shit. It is so bad I cannot get anywhere it is that bad. Links clicked take you back to where you started. I am basically stuck with two colleges that I cannot change, ( Read more... )

Some days have transpired since my brother had a meltdown fueled by desperation and lack of funds that boiled over into everyone else’s lives. He went and bought something, an impulse purchase, and then immediately regretted it and wanted to forfeit the money in spite of already committing to get it. He ranted for hours, declaring that everyone was ( Read more... )