you are cold.
unfeeling.

part of me, most of me, thinks i should end it once and for all.
it's not like you give a shit.

but the other part of me, the part that resists change, makes me think we can still work out.

i just found out that my roommates are vacating our current home during the next two weeks.
i thought we had until the beginning of december.
thanks for the heads-up, assholes.

i turn to you,
but you turn away from me
after all that i've done
and all that i've proven to be
i gave you my heart
and i gave you my soul
but you gave it back to me

i swallowed my pride
but you couldn't see.and you want to remain friends ( Read more... )

acting like a bitch doesn't make you any better than me.
it just makes you a bitch.

sister, sister where did we go wrong?
tell me what the fuck we're doing here.
why are all the boys acting strange?
we've got to show them we're worse than queer.

one.
two.
three.
four.
SUCK MY LEFT ONE.
SUCK MY LEFT ONE.

you said you'd save me.
you said you'd love me always,
but you lied.

i am stranded in colorado right now and i am so fucking pissed off. and i can't decide if i want to cry or scream or run around outside in the freezing cold. they all seem like viable options right now ( Read more... )

Do you remember the first kiss ( Read more... )

i tried to run away this weekend.
it didn't work though.
i really just spent a lot of time in my room and at my mom's.

i feel anxious.
i want to fucking scream.

grindinggrindinggrinding my teeth with these clenched fists. i wish i knew what was wrong with me.

there's more than blood
that beats through my heart
my hands my feet
stuck between my tongue and my teeth
we don't know so we wait for tomorrow

[i'd wait up all night for you.]